Maria Salvatore || The Vampire Diaries

twenty nine

Maria's POV

I was completely heartbroken.

When I ended things with Matt, it hurt, of course it did but this pain was different. I felt emotionally drained.

The only person I wanted.. the only person I was going to spend forever with, didn't want that with me. He might say he does but.. how could it be true? How could he claim to love me but ultimately have feelings towards someone else? It hurt far worse than I could've ever imagined.

Was I not good enough?

I now understood how Beth felt and why she left. That's probably what I need to do too, leave. She seems happy now, full of life, I crave that.

The dress was starting to get uncomfortable, I must've been laying in bed for hours now. When I got home I simply said goodnight to Stefan, Damon wasn't home yet, and came to my room. I didn't even take off the dress, I just laid in bed and stared at the ceiling.

Being a vampire was hard, the ticking feeling that was my humanity switch was back and worse than ever. The desire to shut off my emotions was at its fullest peak, but I couldn't, not now and not for this.

I hadn't noticed that Stefan stood at the end of my bed, until I heard his low breathing.

"Can I help you?" I ask, in a monotone.

Stefan sighs and goes to sit at the foot of the bed, "I know what you feel Maria... I don't want you to think you're going through this alone, you have me."

He was right, if anyone knew how I was feeling it was him. Elena basically fell in love with Damon while she was still with Stefan, he knew first hand on how bad it hurt.

"I'm sorry I haven't been there for you Stefan, how are you doing?"

I decide to take the attention away from me and put it on him, I had been a bad sister recently but my brothers haven't been so great either. We all needed to work on being a better family, for each other.

"Elena and I... I thought we were meant to be." He mumbles in a small voice.

I push myself up so I'm sitting right beside him at the end of the bed, I slowly lean my head against his shoulder as we stare out the large window, the moon shined bright tonight.

"It won't hurt forever Stef.. that's one thing I can promise you. We'll make it out together."

It goes quiet, I enjoyed this moment. Since I've been back I haven't really had any bonding moments with my brothers and they were the ones who practically raised me.

"I can ask Kol to compel away the feelings?" I jokingly offer, attempting to lighten the mood. Lifting my head from his shoulder to see his reaction.

Stefan looks at me with almost hopeful eyes, which makes me shake my head immediately.

"No- that was a joke."

Stefan still looks like he wants to go through with it but I shake my head once again, standing up from the bed to start removing my makeup.

"Elena is apart of you, the memories you two shared together are too important to forget. Although you are not together now.. you two still had an epic love. Don't let that go." I tell him, looking at him through the mirror.