396 Miles From Home- an original story

Chapter Eleven

"And I don't wanna wait till the sunshine fades
And bury our love in a shallow grave.
Cause the world could be cruel to us, or
We could live for the dangerous, so.
Let's start, let's start a riot,
Hard to sit still when your heads on fire..."
~ Glitter & Crimson, All Time Low

Trigger Warning: Coming out scene, panic attacks, talks of anxiety, and spoiler alert for The Outsiders!

Finley's POV

    Our halfway break was only a week and a half long, but it was a week spent well; sleeping, reading, and hanging out with my family. A few days before break ended, Kit and Emma were over at my house. I always found it funny how after only a short time apart, we all gravitated towards each other again. As mad as we could get on tour, we were all still best friends and we loved hanging out with each other. My parents were both at work and we had taken over my living room, the movie we were watching forgotten as we scrolled through our phones. I looked over at Kit. She looked a little nervous and had been restless all day. She reached up to pull on her hair, but as she had just cut it off into a long pixie cut, she had no hair left to mess with.

    "So, there's something I need to tell you guys." Kit started. I raised my eyebrows at her. "Izzy and I have been kinda seeing each other. Like, secretly." Emma laughed gently.

    "I'm surprised, but not surprised." I laughed. Kit shook her head.

    "That's the thing. Izzy's tired of hiding from everybody. She doesn't care if I ever come out publicly but she's tired of hiding from you guys or our families. She knows I still haven't come out to my mom yet and she doesn't want to give me an ultimatum, but I'm scared she's gonna break up with me if I don't tell everyone." Kit admitted quietly.

    "Okay, that's not right, but I can kinda see where she's coming from. It's not right to pressure you into this... But, do you want to tell everyone?" Emma asked. Kit nodded.

    "Then do it. If that's what you want to do and Izzy isn't influencing your choice, then do it." I said.

    "That's the thing! She isn't pressuring me, but she kind of is. At least, I kinda feel like she is. Izzy is out and proud and we've always known that. I'm not. I'm scared to come out. I'm scared to tell everyone, my mom, the whole entire world that I'm gay. But this is why I'm telling you guys now. I am tired of hiding. I am tired of keeping this a secret, of keeping my love for Izzy a secret. She shouldn't have to feel like my dirty little secret because she isn't. I don't want to put this off because I'm scared. I mean, Jesus, the whole crew knows. I just have to tell my mom. And the fans." She looked at us wide-eyed and I could see the fear hidden behind the bravery.

    "You don't have to tell the fans. Some things can be kept private." I said gently.

    Kit shrugged. "Let's be real here. They'll find out somehow."

    "True. And you shouldn't be afraid to be yourself. I know why you would be, but you shouldn't. Your mom is gonna love you no matter what. She loves you and she always will. Alec's parents love him still and his moms Catholic."

    "And the fans won't give a shit. Izzy's out and they still love and support her too. They might be a little heartbroken that's she's taken, but they'll still support you both." Emma added with a laugh.

    "It'll be okay Kit." I mumbled, pulling her into a hug. Emma hugged her from the other side. I heard Kit laugh from somewhere between the two of us.

    We jumped apart when the door opened.

    "Hey-hey bitches," Izzy called, shutting the door behind her. I rolled my eyes at her. Kit stood up and rushed over to Izzy, pulling her into a kiss. It was short, and when Kit pulled away, cheeks flushed in embarrassment, Izzy was quick to smile and slow to open her eyes.