This Romantic Novel [√]

Chapter 19: Pt2 Then Get Her

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Okay, Amanda, Luke and I. It was very awkward. I barely looked at them and I didn't want to, feeling that they might catch me.

"So Jade," Amanda cut off the awkward silence.

I now stared at her, waiting for the question.

"How's your new book doing?" She asked.

"Oh, great but I'm just relaxing at the moment now to refresh my mind," I told her.

"Well, that's great," Amanda said cheerfully.

Amanda opened her mouth to speak once again when we all heard her phone ringing on the table, looking at the phone, there was a picture of Kane - knowing now that it was Kane who was calling - I shifted my view to Amanda. I saw a face of sadness, anger and frustration (all mixed) before she stood up and clutched it in her hands.

"I'll quickly take this," Amanda excused herself before leaving.

Now since it was the two of us - my curiosity took over me.

"So," I spoke first, staring at Luke who gazed right back at me- I gulped before continuing. "Did Kane and Amanda get into a fight?" I asked.

Wanting to observe his look, I waited, seeing that he was hesitating to open his mouth when he suddenly did.

"Amanda and Kane broke up," He answered.

My face drained with colour, feeling sympathy for Amanda. "Oh" Was all I said before crossing my arms on the table. "Was this just recently?" I asked, trying not to seem like I was prying.

"The day we were eating lunch together," Luke answered once more.

"Ah, no wonder she seemed off," I thought before thinking about something else.

"Luke was the one that ordered it from me"

"You still remember my favourite dish"

"As if I couldn't forget"

"It seems that Amanda is still not over Luke," I thought.

Slowly looking up at Luke, I see a worried face staring at Amanda's figure, "And it seems that Luke is still not over Amanda as well" I thought, feeling my heart-tugging tugging.

Feeling awful about this (but to also protect my heart from this once again) I took a deep breath before opening my mouth.

"You still have feelings for Amanda, don't you,?" I confidently asked, trying to let my voice crack from crying.

Luke stared at me again, hesitating to open his mouth - knowing - as to where I'm going with this.

"You hesitated. And not saying anything will make me believe that you still do," I laughed lightly, staring at my mug. "You should go and make her happy this time and work things out for real," I added, averting my gaze back to wait for a response. Not moving my eyes away, I observe his face to see that he was bewildered by my reply yet, I can see that he is feeling guilty.

"I'm sorry if I was leading you on," he suddenly apologised, "However, it didn't mean that those feelings weren't real,"

I smiled weakly, trying not to break down. "I know. However, it seemed that your feelings for Amanda were much louder" I told him, using my head to signal him to go in Amanda's direction. "You should quickly go and tell her how your feelings haven't changed - before with everything I said suddenly became meaningless," I added before standing up - leaving my mug on the table.

He chuckled for a moment, standing up and thanking me one more time before walking in Amanda's direction.

He was gone. Totally gone now, and I felt so much stupid and regret in my body for me leading him into somebody's arms. Screw you Cupid - your main player went to the next, final level - while I'm here stuck. I can already feel water gathering in my eyes

"Okay let's continue - where is everybody,?" Penelope came back with Marcus by her side.

I immediately looked in her direction, seeing both of them staring at the empty chairs before Marcus looked in my direction to see me; his face drained and felt sympathy for me.

"Do you want to rest now?" Marcus asked me.

Penelope now looked up in my direction while I saw her in my blurry vision (her face was also the same as Marcus's) already knowing what I just did.

"Baby~" Penelope pouted as she and Marcus both came up to me slowly.

Meanwhile, I felt my cheeks wet making me (unconsciously) wipe it off too see that it was my tears that suddenly fell on their own accord - and it wouldn't stop. I couldn't stop letting them fall as I vigorously wiped my cheeks until giving up.

"Hey, Jade," Penelope called my name softly, grabbing my wrists gently to prevent myself from wiping the tears that fell even quickly while I sniffled. "You want to sleep with me today,?" She asked.

I immediately shook my head - declining the offer.

"I'll just go and sleep in Cooper's room, it's been a while since we've been together" I made an excuse before I tug my hands towards me (releasing them from Penelope's grasp) before I swiftly walked into Cooper's room.

Closing the door carefully, I took a deep breath; turning around to see my big brother sleeping comfortably in his large bed making me chuckle mentally. However, even that didn't seem to make me forget what I did moments ago.

"It's time for you to move on with this unrequited love," I told myself, wandering towards the bed (sitting on the edge), taking off my shoes before laying down next to him with the covers on. "Tomorrow, you better not be thinking about that," I lectured myself, facing my brother's back.

Already feeling my tears falling once again, I wrapped my small arms around his waist tightly - snuggling in closer before I closed my eyes.

He loved me. I felt thrilled; however, his feelings for his past lover seemed to be screaming more louder - even when we were still together. In the end, I know that he will get over these feelings for me, but I won't get over my feelings for him.