Undecided|| Vallyk or Derek??

Chapter 41

My heart beats it feels like it could burst. I'm so stunned I cant answer his question.

V: What is this y/n?

I still don't answer.

V: Is that what took so long in the "bathroom"? He says this while lifting up quotations on the word bathroom.

I build up enough strength to talk.

Y: I promise nothing happened.

V: Really? I get a picture of you, in a room, alone! with Derek and you expect me to think nothing happened?

There's no way I can tell him what really happened, I have to come up with something quick!

Y: He still has feelings for me, okay! I didn't want to tell you because I knew this would happen. He came into the room to tell me has feelings for me, and I told him that I'm dating you and that was it. He was persistent, that's why it took so long. Please believe me.

He looks at my as if to be contemplating whether he should believe me or not. He nods then takes a few steps toward me to pull me into a tight embrace.

V: I'm sorry I accused you.

I start to tear up, my head buried into Vallyk's neck. Kiki once told that one lie can spiral into a big ball of something more, something worse. She was right. I've had to lied to Vallyk more in the past 24 hours then I ever have, just because of one stupid mistake. But I can never tell him what happened. Not now, not ever. I just have to make sure Derek wont either.

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After Vallyk apologized we talked for a couple minutes before I left. 

I got straight into the car, now on my way to the diner. I drive the 15 minutes to the diner, and pull out my phone as soon as I stop in the parking lot. 

I scroll through my contacts and stop when I find Dereks contact. I pull up messages and just stare at the screen. I finally decide to text him and say:

Hey, we need to talk. Meet at the diner parking lot?

I stare at the phone, anxiously waiting for a response. A couple seconds later he answers:

Omw.

I look at my surroundings, while I wait for Derek to join me. 

It felt like hours of waiting, but realistically it was only a couple minutes.

He pulls up and parks beside my car. He gets out of his car and I unlock mine for him to get in.

Y: Hey..

D: Hey, you wanted to talk? Think I have a pretty good idea of whats its about. 

Y: Yea. About what happened last night-

D: I know, and I enjoyed it too.

Y: No, what I was going to say that it was a mistake and it won't be happening again. 

D: what?

Y: I said it was a mistake, and it won't happen again. I shouldn't have done that  to Vallyk, especially after what you did to me.

He looks at me deep in the eyes, and turns to fully face me.

D: Look y/n, I fucked up and I know that. I never realized how much my feelings for you were before I lost you. Cassie was leading me on and I made a mistake. I'm so sorry for what I did, and I want nothing more than to kiss you right now-

My heart rate starts to quicken and I can feel my face heat up.

-But if you can look me in the eyes right now, and say you didn't feel anything last night, that you didn't enjoy it. Ill walk out of this car and you wont hear from me.

Of course I felt something! I don't know how, I don't know why but I just do. But there's no way I can admit this.

I turn to face Derek, looking him in the eyes.

Y: I didn't feel anything last night. It was a mistake.

He nods, and looks down for a couple seconds. Without a word he exits my car and as he's opening his door, I don't know why but guilt overcomes and I say

Y: Wait! I say quickly rolling down my window.

He looks back at me, his eyes glistening with hope.

Y: I lied. I did feel something. But what I didn't lie about is that's it was a mistake, and it will never happen again.

D: Yep, it will never happen again. He says this with a little smirk on his face.

Y: I'm serious Derek!

He shuts his car and door and pulls of. I instantly regret telling him the truth, I could've just made thing a lot worse.

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I shut the door behind me and slide off my shoes. I walk into the kitchen to see Kiki cooking dinner.

K: Hey, you were gone for a while.

Y: yea I just stopped by the diner to get some food, to a while to prepare the food.

Another lie.

K: So I'm guessing your full?

I'm starving!

Y: I'll just eat, don't want to waste your food.

Not long after, Kiki sets the plates down and sits across from me.

K: So, what's new I haven't been seeing you much lately.

I really want to tell Kiki what happened because I really need someone to talk to, I just need her advice. But I don't need her lecturing me either.

Y: Nothing much just school, and Vallyk...

and Derek.

K: Great. So how are things with you and Ahiella?

Y: pretty good.

I don't know if I should continue meeting up with her especially since what happened between me and Derek.

K: That's it?

Y: yea...we hang out often what else am I supposed to say.

She shrugs.

I put my dishes in the sink then go up the stairs to my room. I strip my clothes then hop in the shower. Hot showers are my way of calming down, now is the most I've ever needed it. I can feel myself relax as the hot water runs down my body.

I get out the shower and put on my pjs. I crawl into my bed and slowly drift off to sleep, all my worries slipping away like the wind.

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I don't know how I feel about this chapter but enjoy 😋 also make sure to put in the comments any requests or recommendations if you have any. Im gonna try to get back into my schedule for updates.