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Chapter 15

Alex pov
Monday is next week, and I'm literally in pieces. I'm not an angel, I'm not a saint although I'm full of mistakes but i'll walk through fire. Fire, thats hot... burning hot just to make my girls happy. My parents have really messed it up this time, no wait! I have messed it up this time and big time. Ella isn't alone I'm by her side, through think and thin but when shes broken when shes in pain.

I feel like combusting, crying, screaming, hitting punching god knows what. I walk home and overthink my relationship with the only girl I've ever loved. "Alexander!" Great my full name. "What do you want mom?" "Black or white skirt for when we meet your fathers business's men in America". Like the hell do i care, why dont you ask the others who acually want to go to America because i dont give two shades of..."Alex did you hear me"

"Yes, i heard you go with the black'... like your soul. "Great, are you ready have you told Ella and her family. I am sorry that this is happening right now, but we will be back soon". I'm going to loose everything, miss out on Bays first steps, crawling, fucking talking other then babbling. "When will we be back?" When your father has done his job i guess, how would I know. "Do you actually really care, or are you just some mad hater". I cant help it, hell even I'm annoyed "Alex i know your upset, honestly if you could stay here I'd let you. However your two young..." "I'm sixteen, hows that young."

I walk out of the room, because i feel as though if i don't I'd curse my mother out there and then, which would not be amazing. I just cant help but think what is Ella thinking about, what is she going through? Why now out off all the time we have. It could of been when I'm eighteen, when I have a job and a house or some sort. So then i didn't have to go and leave my family because I'm known to be a child still that needs their fucking parental guidance.

I feel ill, like if i don't calm down or makes things right I'd end up on life support, Ella was my life support. Bay and her were my absolute everything and that's all going to go away as soon as i walk through that airway in that damn plane station. I feel hopeless like I've lost my breath knowing that if and when i come back. I'd have to start all over again, because her love will fade but mine will stay, it will always stay.

I walk into the plane station with the map of where i need to go, with my family around me and my last goodbye message still left on read by Ella but not answered. With my stuff being sent to the plane and us waiting for what seemed like an eternity we finally make it to that dreaded airway I've been going on about. I'm not ready for this... i stop, I hesitate and then i run away. My family screaming at me as i run, and me feeing like if this is my only hope i will go for it no matter what happens.

However i stop, when a man grabs hold of my bag on my back and I turn to face the security man. "Something wrong dude?" "Your causing a scene" he tells me in a deep voice as my father catches up to me and my attempt to be free myself, slowly fades when he grabs me from the security man and doesn't let go off me until were on that bloody plane.

This sucks, I'm sitting in the window seat on the very inside so then i don't escape with my mother and my dad on the end. My father still pissed off at me but does it look like i even care. "What's up with you man" my brother says as i turn to face the window hiding my tears but they fall. "Alex, what was that!" He is really bugging me now. "Alex talk to me please, just say something" ugh... fine. "I don't want to be here okay, so just leave me alone please and enjoy your time on this damn fucking airplane."

"Language young boy" my father whisper shouts as i have now made yet another scene that - who would of guested i still don't care about. "Robert he is just upset okay, lets just leave him be. It will take time." Yeah time i don't have Trisha. I shouldn't be here, i should be with Ella and my daughter that i am going to miss so much. America is going to be hell, but i wont give up on them, hoping that they wont give up on me.

When my eyes close I'm dreaming of being with my family, my girls... but then I'm awoke by a buzzing of a phone thats, my phone. I remove it from my pocket as quick as my hand can and immediately turn it on to see the words I've been longing for... Ella on my screen. 'Have fun in America, we will be here when you get back. We will miss you love your girls xo'.