Superstar's Spotlight: Limelight (18+) [COMPLETED] {unedited}

29: Promising?

"I take it you guys made up?" Wyatt says as I descend the stairs the next morning. "In some ways." I smile as I reach the end. "So no separation?" I shrug my shoulders.

"One step at a time I guess, although I'm still mad he went behind my back and invited that tramp in our home, in our room, in our bed."

"Well good thing he's all banged up or they'd probably bang." I chuckle, I should be mad but I can't be right now, not when I'm remembering.

"Oh Wyatt, he may be banged up but, there is nothing banged up about his friend down there, we've made it work." He clears his throat. "Well then, moving on. How are things gonna be now?"

"To be honest Wyatt, I don't know." We walk to the kitchen. "It's been so flip floppy since his accident, everything is so back and forth, it's black then it's white... I'm just a little lost and it's hard trying to not lose myself as he tries to find me."

"Don't stress it then, let's talk about something else, you can ask me how it was in rehab or if you don't wanna talk about that we could hang out with the kids... something before I leave today."

"It's kind of hard not to be stressed about it, it's crazy how he seems in love with me one minute and the next he's not." I sigh. "As you said, I won't stress and today is my last day with Gerard?" I make a sad face. "I'm gonna miss him." He smiles.

"We'll always keep in touch, that's a fact. Busy schedule today or free time to do other things?"

"Well I really don't wanna leave the house but if you really want to we can. What do you suggest we do today?" He shrugs his shoulders. "Maybe staying in would be better, the paparazzi are not who I want to deal with at the moment."

"We could watch movie with the kids, I have a popcorn machine I haven't used yet, we can make this place dark like the theaters." He smiles. "Sounds like a deal." He stands. "I'll go pick out a movie."

"I'll get the popcorn ready." He gives me a thumbs up and leaves. "Gianna." I turn around and he's walking closer to me. "Thank you so much for taking care of my son." He hugs me tightly and I hug him back with the same tightness.

"It was a pleasure, anything for family." He kisses my head then releases me and leaves. I watch him go and realize it's been a while since I've gotten a hug like that. I mean, it was exciting hugging him when he returned but those hugs were two different hugs and I miss the way Elliot would hold me. 

"Hey G?" Elliott says and I sit on the bed. "What's up?"

"Why haven't we had another child yet?" I widen my eyes. " I mean, I've always wanted children and not just a child... so why just one?"

"Well, there were complications with Aiden and before Aiden I miscarried."

"But we had Aiden after and he was-." I look at him shocked. "Wow, this is almost like de ja vu. We talked about this and you were saying the same words." I lift my shirt up as he stays silent.

"I don't know if you've noticed but, this was how Aiden was born." He reaches out and touches my scar. "He was an emergency and I've been fearful every since, what if something worse happens?" He looks up at me still with his hand on my stomach and I put mine over his.

"Right before your accident we, well you." I chuckle. "Threw away all my pills and we were going to start the baby making process." He laughs and I giggle. "Hey, I'm pretty serious sometimes." I smile.

"But then I came home the same day you knocked them out my hands and I found you." My lips tremble and I sniffle. "Elliott I almost lost you, Aiden almost lost his dad and Victoria her son and only child left in this world." He sits up and begins pulling me with his good hand.

"But it appears as if I've lost you, just not physically." He hugs me. "Gianna, I'm here."

"Yes, you're here but you're not, the memories we've shared have all been wiped from your existence, I've been erased." He buries his nose in my hair.

"The more you tell me stories about us the more I realize that you are the love of my life, the more I sit here trying hard to remember everything about us just makes me realize that it is not you who has suffered loss... it is I. I've lost everything, I've lost my family." I look up at him. "What?"

"Your memories should be ours, but they are only yours. I can't even remember my own son and I'm stuck here in this bed, sleeping beside the woman who I've spent years with, who I've known so much about and to only see her as a complete stranger." I see tears in his eyes.

"Gianna, I know that you love me, that you truly do or else you wouldn't be here with me. But,"

"Please, no more buts, it's always something bad after heart felt moments. I don't want to hear it."

"Gianna, I don't deserve you, I only hurt you more and more everyday with feelings I have not for you but someone else, someone who has been forgotten according to what I've heard but, she's not forgotten, she's all I remember."

"Please Elliott, no, I don't want to hear anymore of it." I stand and shake my head. "I'm sick of it! Everytime we take 2 steps forward it's a thousand back."

"I don't want to hear about Sara anymore, why can't you just love me? I'm the one you see everyday? I'm taking care of you, am I so hard to love?"

"No!" I look at him. "You're not, don't ever say that. You are loved by many Gianna, one man alone should not have you question this, you're amazing and anyone with eyes can see that. Don't let my downfall let you think less of yourself."

"Now, I'm not saying that Sara should come back. I'm letting it be clear to you why it's so difficult to be with you the way you are with me. I talked to Sara and told her I needed to figure us out, to talk to you and make sure I'm making the right decisions first." I wipe away tears.

"I'm so sorry I'm a flip flop but, I'm just one really confused man. Part of me is attached to you're memories of us and the other part is attached to my memories with Sara. I feel like I have to choose and it's tearing me apart because I know I'll be hurting both of you." He hangs his head.

"In all honesty, from what you told me, Sara broke you so forgetting about her probably won't hurt her as much as you think, she'd probably see it as karma." He sighs pinching the bridge of his nose.

"I know it sounds selfish but, you chose me already and that's why we're married and not you and her." I fold my arms. "I've never cried so much since we've been together and I'm sick of it." I don't know what was happening to me but it was as if I reached a point... was it cooling, boiling or breaking? Which ever one it was, it made me feel bitter.

"Sara cheated and had a child with another man and tried to pass the child off as yours, telling you to stop chasing your dreams." I said as I leaned in close with my arms still folded.

"Think about all I've told you Elliot, try to think it through and try to remember us. I'll be sleeping in another room tonight, I think we both need some space."

What was I doing? Am I silly enough to think that distance was going to make a heart fonder that felt nothing for me? I sigh as I walked to another room.

I needed time to think, to imagine a world without Elliott because for some reason I felt that he wasn't going to choose me... I had lost faith.