"Fuck."
Kabadong-kabado ako! Dahil sa kaba ko, umahon na ko doon at naligo na. Nagpalit ako ng pajamas at inabala ang sarili ko sa panonood ng TV habang hinihintay kong tumawag si Veron. Nagkekwentuhan pa rin sila Ysabelle sa labas nang biglang mag-ring ang phone ko.
Agad akong tumayo at naglakad pabalik-balik, pinag-iisipan kung paano ko ba sasagutin 'yon! Ngayon lang kami mag-uusap sa tawag. Pakiramdam ko ay teenager ako ulit! Ano ba 'to!
Huminga ako nang malalim bago ko sinagot.
"Hello?" I tried to act normal.
[Hey...] He answered in a bedroom voice.
Umupo ako sa kama at siniksik ang sarili ko doon sa pinakagilid, katabi ng pader. 'Yung puso ko parang lalabas na sa dibdib ko.
"Bakit ka napatawag?" Tanong ko.
[Nothing. I just miss your voice.]
I bit my lower lip and ignored the urge to hit the wall to calm myself. I tried to breathe slowly before I answered again.
"Hindi ako 'yung nag send ng picture. Ysabelle used my phone," pagpapaliwanag ko kaagad.
[That doesn't make any difference.] He sighed.
"How's the... the meeting?" Nauutal pa 'ko!
[Done deal. Can you stay up late for me?]
Kumunot ang noo ko. "Para saan?"
[We'll just..] Napahinto siya sa pagsasalita niya. Nakarinig ako ng ibang boses sa background. [Veron, let's go to my room na..]
Nakarinig pa 'ko ng kaluskos at yabag ng paa bago namatay 'yung tawag. I was immediately mortified! Anong mayroon?!
Don't conclude. Don't conclude. Paulit-ulit kong sinasabi sa sarili ko. I was reminded by Mave's words. I should ask. Right. I should ask first like a normal adult.
I tried to call again but he didn't answer. It bothered me the whole night. Unwanted thoughts slowly creeped inside me. It was already 3 AM when I decided to get up and get some beer to help me sleep.
"Can't sleep?" Tanong ni Ciara sa'kin na naroon sa sahig sa living room, nakaupo at may hawak ding beer.
Ngumiti ako sa kanya at kumuha ng beer in can sa ref. Pagkatapos, umupo ulit ako sa tapat niya. Nakipag-cheers muna ako sa kanya bago ako uminom doon.
"Problem?" Tanong ko sa kanya.
She sighed. "Had a dream," she smiled at me.
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Roman pour AdolescentsBONS AMIS SERIES #3 In a family of doctors, Veron decided to take different path. With family pressure on him, he tried so hard to maintain his high grades until Avianna from Architecture came into his life. Cover is not mine. Credits to the rightfu...
