Alittle Too Gay

I Like Boys??????

'I don't like guys.... right?' Jason lay on his bed, rock music loudly blasting in his ears as he nervously chewed on a gummy bear. There was no way Jason was gay. Not one time in his entire life had he ever thought of men as nothing more than 'attractive', but Devin just had to come and make him question something he was once so sure of. Looking back, there were times where him and Devin were probably a bit 'overly' affectionate. Like sharing a bed, or doing each other's hair, or lying on each other's shoulder. Christine would poke fun at them for it, hell, he would laugh with her at her playful jabs because he never thought anything more of it. Yet...... He chewed on the inside of his cheek. No, it wasn't just that. It was a combination of everything else Devin did. His dry sarcasm, and the way he would put so much effort into a single pony tail only to let his hair down. The way his eyes would crinkle everytime he laughed, and the way his face would always give away what he felt. How he was unfiltered in his opinions, often being too honest, and his strange infatuation with his dumb banana icecream and anime.
If Devin were a girl he would've definitely asked him out, but he wasn't so what was he supposed to do? Switch to liking boys?! Hell no. He couldn't just switch. He couldn't just forget all about girls for one guy, that's not how it worked. He groaned. Why did it have to be so complicated? Why couldn't his brain just shut up and let him like Devin instead of rambling on like some psychopath? He raised the bag of gummy bears to his head like a single mother just finishing up with a divorce would raise a glass of wine, catching as many of the chewy sweets as he could. He felt strangely inconsiderate. Devin had most likely liked for at least a year, and here he was now having some sort of epiphany after no doubt breaking his heart. He needed to talk to someone, spill his guts before his mind exploded. He didn't want to say he 'liked' Devin until he was absolutely certain. After all he couldn't blatantly make such a big statement already knowing Devin's true feelings, it would be rude. So he quickly got up, swiftly brushing through the contacts of his phone for the only person (besides Devin) who would give them their pure, unfiltered opinion. His finger hovered over the call button, his mind spewing the worst possible outcomes from the situation; still, he needed to talk to them. To hear their voice. So he pressed call, the phone only ringing once before the person on the other line picked up. "Finally calling? you asshole!" He chuckled. "Hey Chris." 

A word from the author. Hi guys this is RoseEmbers, obviously lol. So, I know there might be some people who might say Jason was overreacting, but Jason's entire thought process was based on what was running through my mind when I found out I was pansexual. Only thing was I had no one to talk to and I was VERY closeted. I was in denial for about a year lol. Jason is heavily inspired by me, his whole way of overthinking and the disconnect he had with his family. I do tend to express myself through him alot as well as with other characters. Every single character has atleast one of my traits but it's most prevalent in Jason.