Alittle Too Gay

You're In Everything I See

Bullying? Devin no longer knew such a word. After having Derrick publicly get his ass handed to him by Mr. Bentley, all of his other bullies had decided that their high school years were more important than the risk of being expelled. Christine had stuck to him like glue after his events with Derrick, glaring so intensely at students that for a moment he thought she might've killed them. He had also made a new friend that Christine immediately grew attached to. Alexander. A boy so precious that he might as well have been baby Jesus.
Alexander was the epitome of a cinnamon roll. Never had he met such a genuinely innocent and sweet person, and there was an evil part of him that wanted to corrupt that innocence, but he knew Christine would never allow it. Alexander LOVED anime. And not just any type of anime, Magical girl. Devin wasn't surprised to say the least, but he was happy that there was another anime lover that existed within his school. Other people looked at soap operas or cheesy high school dramas, but Devin looked at the bloodiest anime he could find. He wasn't happy to admit it, but he just did. He had caught his dad looking at Fist Of The NorthStar when he was six..... to say it was a traumatic experience was an understatement.
Not even Christine had known of his questionable taste, making Alexander the second person to know, the first being Jason of course. God how he missed Jason. It had been two months since he had left, and yet he still couldn't quite get over him. Every little thing reminded him of Jason. Hell he couldn't even look at a Hershey's bar the same way! He had listened to Christine and kept his nose out of Jason's life, but he would be lying if he said it still didn't bother him how suddenly he left. Plus.... he couldn't help but replay their last conversation. Jason would never end their friendship so abruptly, nor would he keep not confront Christine properly. It was all so bizarre to him.
But.... he had to let go. Jason doesn't want anything to do with him, if he did he would've talked to him. He would've came back...... right? Well, it doesn't matter. Christine was able to let go. She had already come to accept that their short relationship was over and that Jason was gone. If she was able to do that then why should it be any different for him? He should just forget Jason. It would be easier for him if he could.... but he just couldn't. Jason was his everything. He would have never been able to come to terms with himself if not for Jason. He would've never been able to meet Christine or Alexander, he wouldn't have been introduced to Jason's terrible taste in music and equally terrible taste in TV, to his terrible jokes and sexy laugh, to his amazing cooking, to his love for gummy bears, to his breathtaking smile and warm personality....... his life wouldn't have been as amazing as it is now if not for Jason......
A part of him wanted to cry while the other part wanted to smile and be grateful for even having the chance to fall for the beautiful mess that was Jason. He knew how selfish it was to desperately want him to come back for his own self interest, but that didn't mean that he would ever stop. He would keep waiting for Jason to return until his brain had finally caught up to the fact that he never would. That he was making a fool out of himself by holding onto a lie in which he had grown to believe. But it was the most he could do for Jason after everything he'd done for him. Everyone had seemed to forget Jason, even if their 'forgetting' was just accepting; but he never would. He would never bury what people brushed off as a crush towards him. Because it was the last flame keeping him from completely crumbling to  ashes.