Alittle Too Gay

Devin

"Ok. So what's the difference between a saturated and unsaturated compound?" Devin bit his pencil, trying his best to come up with the correct answer to Alexander's question. "Saturated contains carbon to carbon single bonds,  whereas unsaturated contains carbon to carbon double bonds." Alexander smiled approvingly. "Correct! You'll be ready for the exam in no time." Devin smiled, feeling somewhat proud of himself. A small knock on the door was heard, shortly followed by Martha's cheery voice. "May I come in? I brought some snacks." Devin allowed her to, getting up from his spot on the bed to open the door. Martha stepped in, a grocery bag filled with junk food and soda. She shrugged, "You kids have been studying for nearly three hours. You deserve a break." She handed Devin the bag, and it was only then had he noticed her fancy purple dress. "Going out mom?" A blush spread across her freckled face. "Its me and your father's anniversary. He's taking me to that new Italian restaurant down town. Want me to bring anything home for you?" He shook his head. "Nah, it's fine. You two go enjoy yourselves." She smiled brightly, kissing him on his forehead and saying Goodbye to Alexander before she left.

The sound of the car's engine faded out, signaling that him and Alexander were now entirely alone. "Let's dig into these snacks!" He said, taking out all the snacks and handing Alexander a Sprite. His eyes landed on a pack of gummy bears Alexander had reached for, his face immediately falling. Alexander noticed the change in his mood, quickly setting down the brightly coloured pack  of gummy bears. "Don't look so sad! You could have it, they aren't even my favorites, I actually prefer gummy worms." Devin chuckled at his rambling, shaking his head and reaching for a Hershey's bar. "I don't like it, despise it actually. It tastes downright disgusting; but..... Jason is a big fan of these." He groaned. "I don't even know why mom bought it. It's like these little shits are taunting me or something." He puffed out his cheeks, taking a large bite out of the Hershey's bar. Alexander studied him, not really knowing what to say. Jason had always been a complicated topic, one no amount of studying could help him understand. However, after throwing the piece of dialogue back and forth in his head, he decided to respond.

"I know this probably isn't the right time to ask, but I don't think there ever will be." Devin turned to face him, suddenly intrigued. "I never talked to Jason, I've only seen him a couple of times so I don't really know what he's like besides what you and Christine told me. So, sorry if this comes across as insensitive.... but what made you like Jason? And what is making you so hung up on him?" Devin's eyes momentarily widened, his brown face going beat red. He stuttered for a moment, but regained his composure, his face still noticeably red. "I-its just him. Everything about him was so.... authentic." His hands moved with his words, giving further emphasis. "I've obviously had crushes before you know, first it was a boy at kindergarten, then this guy I met online. But none of them were this serious." He chuckled lightly. "As a kid, hell even now, I hated how those princesses would always go on and on about 'love at first sight'. I thought it was bullshit, yet they would always end up happily, with their perfect prince charming." His eyes softened, his lips setting itself into a deep scowl. "I guess part of me was just jealous that I knew it couldn't be me. That I would never get my prince charming. I never 'looked' for love because I thought it would just be a lost cause..... then I met Jason, and suddenly all the walls I had built around myself and all of the years of convincing myself that I liked being alone just vanished. I had fallen for him so quickly that I didn't even have the time to properly think through my actions. He came into my life and forced me out of my self made shell, made me know it's ok to not be alone, made me learn to love and appreciate myself, and honestly, just over all brightens my life. I love Jason because he saw me for more than what I viewed myself. I love Jason because he is Jason; and I feel absolutely shitty because everything I used to tell myself came true. He left, I'm not going to get my Prince charming because its simply not right. I'm not a princess, I'm just little old me."

Devin had already began crying by the time he was finished. Furious tears that refused to stop. Alexander panicked, hurrying over to Devin to envelop in a comforting hug. He was rambling again, more than he would've liked to. Trying to say anything and everything that he thought would calm Devin down. Devin rested his head on his shoulder, quietly sniffing. Alexander rubbed his back, trying to think of how Christine would react to the situation. 'She'd speak her mind. She'd be honest but still sincere.' He thought.

Building up what courage he could muster, and clearing his throat, he spoke. "You're too hard on yourself Devin. You're not alone despite what you may think. You have me and Christine; and even though we might not be your prince charming, we hope we're still enough to give you your happily ever after." The quiet words left his lips, coming almost naturally opposed to the spontaneous jumble of words from before. An ugly sob tore through Devin's throat, catching Alexander off guard and making him further worry. That was until the small smile on Devin's pink lips caught his eye. "Thanks Alexander.... for everything you've been doing these past months... you and Christine put up with my shit too much." Alexander chuckled, lightly patting Devin's back. "True. But if it means seeing you happy, we'd gladly continue."