Alone Without You

8

Okay hear me out everyone, meal tomorrow: stone and a side of pillagers with arrows in their eyes for main, vindicator soup seasoned with vex for starter and we all take a bit of the ender dragon for desert plus lapis, coal and redstone sprinkles!

TW's:
-Trauma/shock
-Mentions rape/self harm

We came home a while later and I helped Dream a little with preparing the guest room and his bags. After that I left to go to my room again, but Dream followed me.

He sat down on my bed, saying nothing. I enjoyed his company with me and I laid down in my bed.

'Georgie? I heard your mum bought some doughnuts, I know you love them. Shall I get you one?'

I shrugged and closed my eyes.

'Can you do it for me? I would like you to eat something.'

I shrugged again and hummed after that. Dream smiled and he stood up, walking downstairs to grab me a doughnut. He came back up with two doughnuts, one for him and one for me.

'Here you go, I know you like chocolate the most,' he said, smiling in a very cute way.

I nodded as I ate a few bites of my doughnut and Dream looked at me, laying down next to me. 'Do you want me to play the song from yesterday, you seemed to like it.'

I nodded heavily and Dream grabbed his phone to look up the song on YouTube. He started playing the song, humming with it and making me calm.

'Can I hold your hand?' Dream asked me.

I was startled by the question, but after thinking about it for a minute, I nodded my head. Dream smiled as he grabbed my hand and I rolled a little closer to him, I really just wanted to cuddle him a little. I rolled to my side and rested my head on Dream's chest. He smiled at me and rubbed my hand softly.

'Georgie,' Dream said as the song was over.

I nodded.

'I know you don't want to record and I trust you with my whole heart, I know it has a very good reason. But can I tell you about my idea which I'm planning. I wanted to record with you and Sap, but I already tweeted that I won't be uploading in a little just as you.'

I nodded on both things he said and I let my neck relax, holding it still on Dream's chest. 'Can I rub through your hair?'

I hummed and Dream's hand started rubbing through my hair. I smiled shyly and felt my face heating up a little. Dream started telling his ideas and I liked listening to it. He was really distracted every now and then, but I just let him speak and take his time. When he was done I hummed, nodding to tell him I liked it and Dream smiled.

'By the way, you know that girl I went with. I went to her place, but I don't know what to think of her now. She appeared to be a smoking addict, her whole house was full of cigarettes and it was really smelly in there. She never cleaned anything and I think that's not the right person for me. I have to have someone who is less chaotic than me, otherwise my ADHD will be even stronger.'

I nodded and cuddled up closer to Dream to show him that I cared.

'She seemed nice and sweet though, but she lived with her parents and she literally cussed at them. I found that really rude and I don't like that at all. My parents mean everything to me and I would never swear at them like that for no reason.'

I nodded.

'I bet you wouldn't either, you are so sweet all the time. It's totally fine that you don't want to talk, but I'm really worried about you if I'm being honest. I thought our first meet up would be a little differently than this one.'

I pouted slightly and Dream saw. 'Don't be sad, it's totally fine. I know you have a good reason for it.'

I shrugged and rolled away from him, staring at my ceiling.

'Do I need to take care of your arms?' Dream asked me, looking at my bandages.

I shrugged.

'Shall I ask your mother?'

I nodded and Dream walked away. I could hear him speak to my mother.

'I tried to make him talk, but he really isn't going to,' he started.

'I'm calling a doctor.'

'Yes, by the way? Do I need to change George's bandages?'

'That would be appreciated,' my mum answered.

'Okay, thanks!'

My mum explained shortly how he had to do it and Dream came back upstairs with some new bandages. He slowly started taking off the current ones and looked at my wounds for a little.

'Georgie, I don't want the person who I love to hurt themselves. You're beautiful and I don't want you cutting and burning your skin, you're so beautiful and you don't deserve that at all. Is this the first time you have ever done this?'

I nodded slowly and looked at my skin. I hated looking at myself after what happened. The self disgust and the self hate kept growing. It was my fault that she got to see my body and that she even had sex with me. It wasn't her fault, she could have asked me, but I didn't even fight back. How could she know? The police probably wouldn't even count this as rape at all, it was just free will if you look at it like that.

After Dream was done with the bandages he laid down next to me again. 'Your mother is calling a doctor, Georgie. We really don't know what's wrong and why you don't speak.'

I shrugged to show him that I didn't care at all. I wasn't going to speak to him and he wouldn't be able to find anything either. Just as a therapist, how would a therapist ever get information out of me if I just wouldn't speak to them.

Dream suddenly touched me, which made me flinch and immediately roll away. 'I'm sorry, Georgie. I just wanted to hug you.'

I shook my head and looked at him with big eyes.

'It's fine, okay? Come here, I will not hurt you or do anything bad, okay? I'll just give you a hug.'

I sighed softly and rolled back to Dream, letting him close me in his arms.

'We are going to help you, okay?'

1048 words