Alone Without You

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TW's:
-Rape!!! (Description+slight sexual content (but I don't describe in detail)
-Complete shock+self hate/disgust

It was a few days later and I was still extremely stressed. I hadn't had any contact with any of my friends anymore and I had the feeling that they were mad at me for not recording with them.

But today was going to be the worst day in my whole life. My parents came upstairs, telling me they both were going to leave. My dad for work and my mum was meeting up with an old friend of hers. They both left at the same time and I had locked myself in my room.

And ten minutes later, the doorbell rang. I looked out of my window to see who was standing there and I took a relieved breath as I saw it was the postman. I sighed deeply and I ran downstairs, opening the door.

'Hi,' I said. 'I didn't order anything, but I think my parents did?'

He said nothing, then grinned and walked away. I stood there a little confused as suddenly someone different walked up to me. It took me a minute to realise what was going on and suddenly I noticed her. It was Zoey, the girl who raped me.

'No, no, no,' I screamed, trying to shut the door, but she was already in.

'Hey, Georgie. Let's see if it's still so easy as before.'

'Please, no. Leave, I'm begging you. I will tell the police.'

'I know you won't, Georgie. You know that I follow you on all social media, right? I know you're lying to your friends.'

'I-.'

'So are you coming with me, or do I have to force you again?'

'No, leave me alone. You've done it once already, please don't do it again.'

'Too bad, George. Come with me, do you want it upstairs or here?'

'Stop, please. I'm traumatised already.'

Zoey started laughing now and she pushed me against the wall, pressing her lips on mine. I tried screaming loudly, but I couldn't. She broke apart and smirked. 'No one will help you, no one even cares about you.'

I didn't know what to do anymore, I knew I was entering a shock. I completely froze and I didn't even fight back anymore as I got pushed towards the couch. I was looking around me in a complete shock, things around me didn't sound real anymore, it all sounded in slow motion and blurry.

I felt hands touch my chest, rubbing over it. I felt lips kiss my cheeks and chest, hands went down, touching my trousers. I was in a complete shock and everything was moving slowly in front of me. I felt my trousers being pushed down, I felt hands touching me everywhere and I noticed I started crying. I didn't know how to speak anymore, I was in a complete shock.

I just couldn't fight anymore, I was trying to hit around me, but I felt like I was moving in slow motion. I felt her grab my hands and hold them above my head. I looked in front of me, seeing her and myself completely naked. I closed my eyes and tried ignoring everything happening to me at this moment.

I felt her stroking me everywhere around my hips and after a while it was too late to even try and fight back. It was too late as soon as it happened again and she started raping me. I closed my eyes tightly, fighting against my tears.

'You're lucky it's not my time to get pregnant,' Zoey laughed at me. 'I mean, if I counted right.'

I couldn't resist the tears streaming down my face, why did I let this happen? How was I this weak? I didn't even try and fight back anymore, it was my fault.

She kept raping me just as long as it took her to be fulfilled. She rolled away from me and started laughing loudly. She started dressing up again and grinned as she walked away, smashing the door behind her.

I was laying on the couch still, completely in shock. I shivered because of the extreme cold I was feeling and I reached out to grab my boxers. I quickly pulled them on, but I was too shocked to put all my other clothes on. I curled up like a ball, closing my eyes.

I was kind of happy to be in a shock, I totally didn't realise what happened yet. Although somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew the next few days would be the worst of my life. I didn't even know how to speak anymore, I was just laying on the couch in shock.

I laid on the couch for hours like this and I was still in shock. I suddenly heard the door opening and I didn't realise anything of it. I curled up like a ball again, hiding my face a little.

'What the hell, George? What are you doing?'

I didn't know how to reply, I didn't want to reply. I held my knees up and my mum threw my clothes to me.

'What have you done?'

I looked up slowly, looking back down immediately.

'Answer me, George.'

I crawled away from the couch and tried standing up, but I was just too shocked, causing me to fall down.

'Are you high or something? Did you have sex with a random girl? What's wrong with you, you're actually so dumb, huh?'

I stood up and slowly walked to the stairs, I fell down immediately and continued going up on my knees. My mum threw my clothes to me again and I grabbed them, putting on my trousers and a shirt. I walked upstairs, laid down in bed and closed my eyes.

I grabbed my phone to check messages from people. I hadn't checked my phone in literally days now. I saw Dream completely spammed me and so did Sap and Bad. I decided to ignore them and closed my eyes. I started falling asleep and relaxed a little, totally not realising what had happened yet.

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