cabinet

forty-three.

day 26 with jaehyung
18:10

my eyebrows quickly furrowed as i pulled away. i felt blood rushing up to my head, and my forearms instinctively covered my mouth. everything happened so fast, like the pace of my heartbeat. he seems to be shocked with his hands on his own lips as well.

trying to take in what just happened, it only caused my cheeks to heat up even more. "s–sorry, i didn't mean to do that." i hastily spoke, swallowing the lump in my throat.

the air was too tight for the both of us to breathe. i moved away and got off the bed, bolted out of the room and right into the bathroom. shutting the door behind me, my hands were quivering as i locked the knob. as soon as it locks, i turn my back to rest on the door to catch my breath.

i still couldn't grasp what just happened. thankfully, my body was quick to react, so quick that my heart isn't beating fast because i ran to the bathroom, but..

i don't even want to recall it, i feel like i'm going to explode.

reaching for the sink, i splashed my face and neck with cold water to cool off. the kiss set off a fire in my body that i didn't know about. this feeling isn't familiar with me, although i've kissed a select few back then.

with jaehyung, it was electrifying.

the water is running, so were my thoughts, but i can't help it when the feeling had lingered on mine. my breath hitches at the very thought of it, and it's probably gonna take me a few minutes before i realize the gravity of how fucked up it was, but right now, i just can't stop thinking about it.

though i tried not to admit, his face of confusion right after the kiss was cute as well.

does he know that we just..

there's no way he doesn't.

i mean, he most likely does not.

but he told me he watches dramas, so, he would definitely know!

wait, why does it matter if he knows or not?!

i wanted to smash my head against the wall until i either turn into a pulp, or the wall breaks. this is so fucked up, i'm so fucked up for thinking something like that.

once again, i splashed water all over my head while slapping my cheeks in the process. "get a hold of yourself!" i wanted to scream at myself, but a harsh whisper could only come out of my throat.

i shut the water off, staring at my flushed, wet face on the mirror. "it's just an accident, yeah, it's just—"

my heart jumps as soon as i heard a knock on the door. all of my thoughts were thrown out of the window, even the fact that i knew i locked the door, that was thrown out as well.

"wait, don't come in!" i yelped, taking a few steps back and stopped when my legs hit the bathtub, almost stumbling as i did.

shit, i gotta calm down. i can't face jaehyung yet, i look like a fucking tomato.

"i.. i'm sorry, i didn't...!" his voice was loud, as if he knew i was away from the door. "i don't know what we just.. did, but, uhm, but..."