Supernova (bxb)

Chapter 22 - Family planning

I stared at Jasper, completely in shock. I mean I shouldn't be, after all this time, all this effort I shouldn't be surprised by his confession, but I still was. He...he loved me. Jasper, one of the most annoying but fucking greatest guys I had every met in my entire life, loved me, an idiot who was fucking cool but yeah...still an idiot sometimes. He loved me, or at least he had said that right now, right?? Or did I misunderstand him, did I just imagine him saying that for some absurd reason, because I maybe wanted to hear it or after just having cum my hearing and mind were a bit hazy I-I mean did that actually happen or- 

"I really love you Pax" Jasper said again, looking up at me intently, like he needed me to hear and understand this. He looked serious...so I guess he was saying the truth. I laid on top of Jasper, barely having calmed down from my orgasm and he was telling me that he loved me. My heart was beating like a fucking maniac, as I stared at Jasper, lost of words. This man loved me, for whatever reasons he could find and I just wanted to cry or laugh or yell it out of the fucking window for everybody to hear. But when Jasper was looking up at me like that, I knew that he needed to hear something else and I was just kind of staring down at him in complete shock, trying to comprehend this. 

"You don't have to say anything back, I know I kind of attacked you with this out of nowhere, but I've been feeling this way towards you for a while now and I just needed you to know that I genuinely love you. Do with this what you may, but I love you Pax" Jasper said, brushing over my hair with his hand, feeling the short ones on the sides of my head between his fingers, before letting his fingers run through the longer ones on the top of my head. Ah fuck this really was a love confession. Jasper loved me and of course tears rose in my eyes at that when the realization settled in. I'm an emotional mess, do you even know me?? But when my mate saw my tears, he began to worry. 

He gently helped me sit down next to him, naked as we both still were, as he quickly sat up, worry filling his eyes. "Oh no no no Pax, I'm sorry, maybe this was too early, but really there is no pressure in you, just take my words and keep them, you don't have to do anything with this information, I'm not expecting you to say anything I-" he started to ramble as I sat there, trying to hide my ugly cry face and I just had to cut him off. 

"I love you too" I managed to get out between sobs and at that Jasper froze completely, probably not having expected that to come out of my mouth now. Ah shit, this was not how I imagined telling him, me naked next to him on my barely made bed after just having blown him and now I was crying like a little kid who lost their balloon, but damn if it wasn't true. I loved Jasper, I really did. I loved him with all my heart and I had known that for a while as well, I just didn't want to deal with it because there had still been the prospect of us parting in the future, which was now gone and I could finally admit this even to myself. I loved Jasper. 

"Wh- What?" Jasper stuttered, completely in shock, while I was still trying to get my crying under control and when I looked at him and saw how shocked he was, but kind of in a good way, a smile made an appearance on my crying face, as I leaped forward, taking him to the floor of my bedroom with me, cuddling on top of him. "I said I love you you dumbass! I love you for fucks sake!" I exclaimed between sobs and hell were my emotions all over the place. But I was definitely happy...oh so fucking happy. 

"Oh my god...Oh my god!!" Jasper exclaimed, suddenly regaining his consciousness and hugging me, as we kind of rolled around on the floor, yes still very much naked but come on, after all we had been through this just didn't fucking matter right now. We settled with me looking up at Jasper, who towered over me, a big smile on his lips, as if he still couldn't quite believe it. He looked like a happy puppy there and that was so fucking adorable, dear lord. "I love you" I said once again, because my dog of a mate apparently couldn't believe it and a tear fell down from his face onto mine, but I didn't care, I was already crying enough for the two of us, I could take his emotions as well.