Supernova (bxb)

Chapter 25 - Making you mine forever

"What?? Why should it be me?" I exclaimed and Jasper immediately looked nervous, that he had fucked up. I mean he had, kind of, that fucker, but also not really. He had asked me a few days ago, if I was ready to complete the mating with him and I had said yes. I loved him and he loved me and so I was ready to make that forever, I really was, but today we were trying to plan it, you know, decide when and where, if we wanted to do it spontaneously or make it a big deal, who should buy condoms and lube and who would fucking take it up the ass. 

I would have thought it would be Jasper, it had been just kind of in my mind that at least for the first time we'd do it, it would be Jasper taking it, but when I had asked him, cause I didn't want to assume, who he thought should be top and who should be bottom, that bitch just answered with: Well I figured it was obvious that for the first time you would be on the receiving end. That asshole! How was that obvious?? In what world had I been signaling him that I was a fucking bottom, I mean come on, us getting intimate before had suggested it to be the other way around if anything!

"I-I mean you obviously do not have to do that, I do not want you doing anything you are not comfortable with, absolutely not Pax, you know that I love you and just want the best for you I-I just thought, you know, normally the alpha is the top the first time, since when he bites the other one the venom might work better and quicker, at least that was what I have heard, so I thought even if I am not biologically an alpha it would be the same, but I did not mean to upset you, it's not that I just see you as the one receiving and you are definitely not submissive Pax, I just thought for the first time this would make sense, but if you are saying you do not want to do it, I understand" Jasper said and fuck how could I be mad at him when he was looking at me like that? 

I mean, what he said made sense, the elders had briefed us over the years on this and how mating works and why the guy or in this case the top had to bite the other one first the first time mating and applying that to our situation, sure it made a little more sense if we did it this way, but he didn't have to say it like that. Still, his backpaddeling right now was kinda cute and it wasn't like I would have never ever be the one receiving, sure I was fucking terrified of it, but with Jas it would probably be fine. 

"No I'm not saying I-...I wouldn't do it, I just don't see why it was so obvious for you that I should be the one taking it" I pouted, crossing my arms in front of my chest and looking to the side and at that Jasper's face softened, as a small smile made an appearance on his face. "I'm sorry, I should have phrased it better. It isn't obvious and it was especially not obvious to me in the sense that you might have thought of at first. It wasn't that I believe that you are the submissive one...even if you do like me taking control over you sometimes, if you know what I mean" Jasper teased and I glared at him. 

"Boy do you want me to slap you back to your senses??" I growled and Jasper gulped, a little intimidated. "No sir, thank you" he nodded and I rolled my eyes, but took his hand so he knew I wasn't actually too mad, we were fine. I sighed, because even if he was being a bit of a dick, he wasn't wrong. Not about the me liking him taking control over me part, fuck no, but about the this making sense part. And now we kind of had to talk about this, because if we waited and figured it out in the bedroom, then we would probably end up just pissed at each other or something. 

"So I...I'm not saying I wouldn't do it. Obviously it wouldn't always have to be that only you bottom or only I do or something, I figured that this is not what works for us and so I mean...it's...it's fine I guess. I'm ok being the one *cough*...receiving first, if we both acknowledge that this doesn't mean that it will stay this way!" I said and Jasper nodded, saying "Yes, of course Pax I wouldn't ask that of you. And I know, I-...I am very much ok with taking turns here. And are you sure that it is ok for you to be the one on the bottom first?"