By Your Side, Always! (RDJ x Reader)

35~A LOT OF NEGATIVE

*Y/N

~1997~

     Robert was bailed a month ago, but after missing his drug test, he was arrested again. But now, I wouldn't be able to bail him out. He was sentenced to a three years sentenced at the State Prison in California. 

     "Robert, I thought you went to the test." I told him as I went to visit him at the jail. I held the phone in my ear, Robert's in front of me with a thick glass in between us. I heard Robert sighed through the phone and we looked at each other. 

    "I'm sorry.. I was still so caught up with our ten years of being together." He smile sadly and showed a little smile. "Truth be told, love. I was going to propose to you last year, on our ninth year anniversary, but everything went downhill. I thought I was going to propose to you when you turned 30, but I told you my fear and you understand it. But, I was a jerk not to--"

     "Hey, stop thinking about it." I said.

     "You know, come to think about it..." He began. 

     "What?" I asked as I saw his eyes began to tear up.

     "I'm keeping you from having a family..." He said. I got shocked when he began telling me that.

     "What do you mean?" I asked.

     "We've been together for 10 years and nothing has ever happened to us.. I love you, but I'm keeping you from having a family... I can't give you one, because I'm here and--"

     "So you're just going to throw away all those years?" I asked. I looked away from him as tears began to fall from my eyes. I immediately wiped it and looked at my lap as I softly cry.

     "I'm trying to let you have a family of your own..."

     "But, I want it with you..." I told him as I look at him. He sighed and shook his head.

     "I can't give you that..."

     "Why not?" 

     "Cause I'm fricking locked here, Y/N.. I can't give...it to you.." He said frustratingly. 

     "So...Are we really ending this? After one year and four months, you'll just give--"

     "Yes.. I'm trying to set you free. I want you to have the family that I won't be able to give you.." He said. 

     "I--I can't--I---"

     "Y/N..." Robert called me. I shook my head and look at him, maybe for one last time. "I'll always love you, it hurts me that I'm letting you go but--"

     "No.." I cut him off.

     "What?" He asked while tears are threatening to fall from his eyes.

     "If you love me, you'll let me stay... I just wasted my decade with you... If only I knew that it'll end like this.." I said and I grabbed my bag from the table. "I'll get my things out of the house, starting today.. I'll give the keys to your mom and---" I couldn't continue the words I wanted to tell because of my emotions. I wiped my tears away and I looked at him one last time and gave him a hurt smile.

     "This will be the last day we'll see each other..." I said. I saw him place his hand on the glass and he started crying.

     "Y/N, listen to me, please just---"

     "Take care of yourself, Robert." I began. Robert stopped and stare at me, like he regretted everything. "Don't worry about me, I can take care of myself. Bye, Robert." I said. I put the phone back, grabbed my bag and never bother looking at Robert while walking out of the room. As I walked out of the prison, it's very heavy in my heart and from my steps. I have managed to arrived at my car and I grabbed my phone to call Rue. While Rue's phone is still ringing, I began crying. 

     "Hey Y/N! I--Y/N? Are you okay?? Why are you crying?!" 

     "Robert broke up with me..." I said and cried.

     "Oh my gosh! Y/N, I'm so sorry... Do you--" 

     "Can you do me a favor and asked the rest of the fam to get my things from Robert's house. I need to move out and I'll send you the address of my new place." I said while wiping my tears and controlling my cries.

     "Y---yeah, sure. I'll go tell mom, dad and the rest." Rue said and I ended the call. Then, I proceeded to Elsie's house to drop off my old key house. After awhile, I reached Elsie's house. I went down and rang her doorbell. After a couple of while, she opened the door and I smile at her, sadly.

     "Y/N? What happened to you?" She asked in a very concern manner.

     "I'll give you Robert's spare keys." I said as I gave her the keys. She reluctantly accept it and look at me in confuse manner.

     "Why? It's your house key.." 

     "Oh.. I'll be somewhere and thought of giving it to you." I said.

     "Come in, Y/N." She opened the door wide for me, but I declined.

     "No need, Elsie. I have somewhere else to go." I reasoned out and smile at her.

     "Oh, okay. Did you visit Robert today?" She asked.

     "Yeah." I said shortly.

     "How was he? How's the visit?" She asked.

     "He's still doing great. But, I'm sorry, I gotta go." I said and I hug her. She hugged me back and I softly broke it.

     "Thank you, Elsie. Bye." I said hurriedly and went back to my car and drove to the airport. I grabbed a plane ticket going to Boston. That's the only place that comes in my mind when it comes to peace. 

~AFTER 8 HOURS~

     I have arrived at the place I rented. I took out my phone and saw a lot of missed calls from my sisters, mom, dad, even Bob and Elsie. I decided to give dad a call.

     "Sweetie! Where are you? We've been trying to reach out to you for a couple of hours now. You made us worry so much!" 

     "I'm fine, dad." I said.

     "Where are you sweetie?" I heard mom asked.

     "Boston." 

     "Boston? Why are you in Boston??" Dad asked.

     "Dad.." I began, but my emotions get the best of me. I began crying and I sat on the floor, placing my back on the wall.

     "Sweetie, talk to me.. Why are you crying? What happened?" Dad asked very concern.

     "Me and---Robert--broke up, dad.." I said and I cried loudly. "We're done, dad." I said while crying. "I--I don't know what to do.." I said.

     "I'll book a flight to you, right now, okay? Send me your address and I'll come and get you, sweetie, okay?" 

     "I want to stay here, dad.." I said. "It's peaceful and it'll make me at peace..." 

     "I'll stay with you.." Dad said with his tone of not giving up.

     "Dad..."

     "Yes sweetie?" 

     "I'm hurt, dad.. It hurts so bad..." I said and sobbed.

     "I know, sweetie. I know, but I'll come as fast as I can, okay?"

     "Okay dad.." I said and I ended the call. As I ended the call, I crawled to a ball and continued sobbing.