strawberries and cigarettes → bounprem

twenty

『flawed angel』

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warning: chapter may contain triggers and also mention of ràpe and/or assault.

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both spent the day exploring the magnificent beach, since boun was the former vice president of the swimming club and also the one who made this whole trip possible, pulled some strings so he and prem could wonder freely without worrying about the teacher, the coach and the activities planned for today.

they took pictures here and there and went to places where the scenery was truly breathtaking.

now they were both sitting on the sands, the sun started hiding behind the clouds leaving beautiful mix of colors with different hues that bounced on prem's milky white skin and boun had the scene printed in his mind. for him, it was the most beautiful scenery he had ever saw. it was like an angel had fallen right in front of him.

blessing him with the harmonious giggles and heart melting smiles. prem was indeed a beautiful angel.

the place was was a bit quiet except for the untaming waves, the soft breeze of the wind and soft chatters of a few people that stayed to breathe in the beauty of the sunset.

"what are you looking at, creep?" the younger playfully said with a mischevious smile.

"the most beautiful angel..." the older could only whisper as he still can't get over the way prem was so effortlessly beautiful and so effortlessly made his heart thump and skip.

prem could no longer hide his blush, earlier he felt a little bit self concious about the way he looks when boun was staring at him but hearing those words fly out from boun's mouth, he felt like it was so illegal to be this happy.

deep down he also felt scared that maybe he was too happy that later all the joy he was feeling right now would only be replaced with sorrow.

'no, i shouldn't think like that! nope.'

"who are you calling beautiful? psh!" he said then bit his lower lip to contain his smile, his toxic thought earlier now disappeared.

"you of course, who else?" even with blemished face and chubby cheeks, boun still looks at prem like he was the most preciouse gem.
"p-p'boun..." his name rolled on prem's tounge so naturally and boun never thought that his name would sound this good from someone before. 'i am fucking whipped, alright...'

"yeah?"

"c-can i trust you?" boun was taken aback by the sudden question of the younger, his eyes a bit widen yet he still calmly replied to the younger, "well...that's easy strawberry. do you trust me?"

prem, again bit his now reddening lower lip nervously. "u-uhm...p'boun, if i tell you why i had nightmares, would you promise not to freak out...or something?" the boy started fidgeting, his hands are sweating though he did his best to avoid the stares of the older and to also calm himself.

"i promise, strawberry. but do know that i can wait for you when you're ready. i'll wait for you. who says i'm in a rush anyway?" the latter replied as he scooted a little closer to prem.

"okay...well i started having this nightmares days after i-i...i was assaulted." the hand on prem's knees that he was hugging to his chest tightens as the memory flashed in his head.

boun could only listen as he wrapped his arms around the younger's shoulder in hopes of somehow comforting the sad watery-eyed boy, as prem continued,

"that was like uhm...when i was twelve. i was with my parents. we were on our way home, walking from a near grocery store then i saw this toy by the alley...i wanted it so bad that i let go of my mother's hand and ran towards it. i'm such an idiot,"

prem sniffs as he quickly wiped the small tear that escaped, but somehow...he wasn't expecting telling this to boun would make him feel...light, the hand that rested on his shoulder tighten as he felt the gaze of eyes that belonged to boun. "...i was pulled to alley a-and...a-a-and this man touched me and did something more than just touch. i panicked and screamed. luckily the lady who was selling the toy i wanted, helped me and stopped the man...before... s-she called the police...my parents sent the guy to jail, and i was put to therapy and had a shrink who was really nice b-but i just can't heal from that disaster! it keeps on coming back to me everytime i sleep, i-its like it knows its way back to my skin, i feel d-disgusting."

prem finished with a loud sob that he tried to suppress but failed. He took a long deep breath and leaned his head on boun's shoulders, the sky burst in different colors as prem's emotion did too. and as for boun, the urge to protect this strawberry grew ten times more.

'i'll protect you, my flawed angel.'

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author's note |

i wrote two chapters in the middle of the night, my head is fucked up.

i am too sleepy to edit so i'll do it when i get some damn sleep.