Back To December.. A Harry Styles FanFic

Chapter 16: Three Nights And Five Hours.

~TAMMY'S POV~

Life. its funny how fucked everything can get in a split second. You think you know something but in this horrible reality you don't. We never really realized our mistakes until its too late. When everything goes tremendously wrong we then begin to play a billion different scenarios in our head; what if this and what if that. "if only i had done thins" , "if only i had done that." that's when the guiltiness of a mother begins to set in. I had failed my one duty in life, to protect my spawn.

        The Hindus believe that  any action, seen as bringing upon oneself inevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation. So here i sit in an empty hospital, with only the sound of a beeping life support to reassure me i am still awake, thinking about my daughter who is slowly dying, and what i had to do with it. I was the best mother i could have been in all places than one. I let my regret and shame begin to sink in. Maybe this karma's way of paying me back.... for... you know. 

    My self pity was disturbed when the door flew open. I turned around, mama bear mode on full, ready to unleash the wrath of a grieving mother on the unlucky intruder. I had earlier stated i didn't want anybody to see her like this, besides doctors and nurses. Darcy'ss doctor wasnt supposed to be here until 3.

Me- what part of stay the fuck out don't you-

I froze when i saw a much needed reassuring face i wanted to see.

Me- Liam!

i breathed his name out of my mouth before slamming myself against him. Liam and i became very close over these past months since out first encounter. He was a father lkie figure for her. Of course we still had my dad and Devin. But with Liam and of course Louis, she had this connection to them. I don't know. Louis was already by her side holding her hand.

Louis- *whisper shouts* how could you let this happen to her!?!

Liam- bloody hell Louis she didn't "let" it happen

Me- ugh. you're such a dick. 

i wiped the tears from my eye

Me- I'm so glad you're here. Liam

Liam- me too. i think shes waking up.

i rushed to her side

Darcy- momma?

Me- yes baby? I'm here

Darcy- is that uncrew LouLou and LiLi?

me- yes baby. your uncles are here

Darcy-X's and O's?

Louis and i smiled. A while back they made that up refering to hugs and kisses.

Louis leaned down and kissed her head 

Darcy- LiLi? 

Liam didnt hesitate to plant a sloppy kiss on her head, before smoothing down her curly hair..

 Darcy- mommy, i hurt. I sowwy. Darcy bad girl?

yay just exactly what i needed more tears. She thought she did this to herself.

 Liam- sorry for what Darc? 

 Darcy- mommy said: no jumpwing. i but bad Darcy jump. i sowwy mommy. no more jumpwing?

i nodded way to flooded with tears to reply.

Louis- its not your fault okay love? its nobodies. just try to relax

Darcy- rewax?

Louis- rest

Darcy- okay

she shut her eyes and pretended to sleep. Her fake snores putting smiles on each of our faces.

Liam- when was the last time you slept Tammy? or even rested.

me- three days ago. and only for five hours.

Liam- you need to. Your eyes look morbid. Don't worry we'll watch her fake sleep for you

Darcy- i am sweeping! 

Louis laughed.

Louis- whatever you say princess.

I smiled. I knew she was in good hands.

Me- fine. I'll just go get something to eat.

they nodded and each took a seat as i was walking out of the room. I nodded at my parents letting them know she was okay. And as i blindly turned the corner i bumped into a guy, causing him to drop the drink in his hand. "so sorry.." i heard a soothing British voice say. i looked up and saw a pair of piercing green eyes. and i could only be able to blurt out one simple word. The only word that could comfort me right now and at the same time scare me shit-less. A name to be exact. The only name i would ever want to call in my time of need. The name that i could never call my own.

Me- Harry?

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Sorry for being a shitty author guys. But its like i don't have time any more. I think ill start writing shorter chapters every week or sooner. or longer ones a week or later. what do you guys think? I did make Darcy takl like a child lol. I want to build her character.