Back To December.. A Harry Styles FanFic

Chapter 9:Running

~TAMMY~

I bit down hard on my bottom lip to restrict myself from crying. No Tammy! i wanted to yell. You are not going to cry do you hear me? Darcy held out her arms trying to get me to hold her, but i just couldn't. Her father just said the most hurtful thing to me and i know damn well that if i look into her eyes i was going to loose it so i shook my head and turned to face Liam and Paul.

me- told you.. i should have never came here

i ran out of the house and to the cherry wood tree where we had carved our initials in. starring at it i let the tears flow out of my eyes and picked up a small stone with a sharp edge and began to scratch out the letters that meant so much to me first.

The sad part about every thing was that i caused  this, all of this. if i had just let Harry know i was carrying his baby, if i had just told him that i still loved him... if i had just been honest this wouldn't have happened. i don't even know what i was expecting when i came here... for him to jump into my arms? for him to forgive me for breaking his heart? well i guess now we are even. i felt someone put their hand on my shoulder. i turned around and saw Anne.

Anne- are you allright?

me- yeah peachy keen. just perfect! awesome actually.

she pulled me into a hug.whispering into my hair "what happened?"

me- I'm sorry... i didn't know what to do. when Harry left and i found out i was....

Anne- go on. I'm not angry

me- pregnant i didin't know what to do so i left. well not just that i was kicked out too, but i was going to leave anyways.

Anne- why would you run away like that?

me- i didn't want to mess up anything for him. his Carree and everything... he was too young to be a dad

Anne- and you are too young to be a mom

me- i didn't care. i would have done anything for Harry's happiness. 

Anne- but that didn't make him happy at all. you know i never really thought your relationship was that serious but i was wrong you guys were truly in love and when he found out you left he was depressed.

me- i know... he has to look at the bigger picture.

Anne- hunny you could have come to me i could have helped. Harry would have been there for you every step of the way we both know that.

me- i do... i just... i have to go know Mrs Cox. thank you for everything you have ever done for me. you have always been here and i am grateful but i think i have overstayed my welcome here. and please do me one large favor, don't mention me or my daughter again. i know the type of trouble i have caused for you guys especially Harry. i have to live with that for the rest of my life, hurting the one you love but i have to go.

Anne- what?

me- thank you Anne. i love you

i walked back into the house and grabbed Darcy

Louis- where are you going?

me- away, never coming back

Liam- that's ridiculous it is almost night time.

me- i will find my way

Anne- I'm not letting you leave. i just got you back, I'm not loosing you again.

me- i cant stay here

Niall- just for one night Tammy

me-.... i have to go.

i walked away as quickly as i can not even knowing where i am going only making it about thirty feet before stopping. i had my purse with me and my credit card was in there, but the nearest hotel was at least two miles away from here. i began to think of Darcy, how this will all affect her and set her down on the road.

Darcy- you kay?

i shook my head letting my self drop to my knees. i rose my hands to my face,  refusing to cry in front of my daughter but breaking down instead. i began to sob hard. i heard feet rushing behind me and hands picking me up.

Liam- you will be fine, i promise

Anne- just come in. stay for one night if you really want to leave that bad you can go tomorrow but tonight you sleep in the guest house. Louis pick Darcy up, Liam take her to the guest room. as he ay me dow he looked at me.

Liam- i will have paul book you a flight. i just really hope you are allright.

Me- im just so tired of running

Liam- you should be. you're running form somebody who isnt even chasing you.

That night i lay in the bed i lost my virginity, the bed where Darcy was conceived. i didn't cry at all instead i smiled at old memories. The best night of my life happened in the very room and my greatest creation went down here. I could still hear myself calling out his name, begging for more but most of all i could hear the last thing he said to me that night. the three words that i longed to hear. "i love you"

~~~AUTHORS NOTE~

so i cannot believe that there actually people who read my stories. i was just posting this one up here out of boredom but people seem to like it and if you just happen to be reading this i would love to say a MASSIVE thank you *giggles like a fangirl* to all of you guys.  and whenever you guys are feeling like i need to post a new one just tell me and i will have it up. thank you for actually reading this and sorry if the last few sentences were a little vulgar and i would love to know your take on whether or not i should include a rated R scenes. and kudos to whoever read this long ass paragraph lol.