Back To December.. A Harry Styles FanFic

Chapter Three: What Hurts the most

~HARRY~

me-I'm fine okay yall just.... leave me alone

the words Left my mouth sour and rude once we got to the hotel we were going to be staying at. i couldn't believe it..... Tammy was alive.... and she had a daughter. who was that guy anyways? her boyfriend? no couldn't be.... he wasn't her type. i felt as if my heart had just been ripped out of my chest. i just saw the lost love of my life and now she had a baby... named Darcy!!!

i went into my room that i was to be sharing with zayn and sat on the bed. i could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. i had to move on trust me i all ready tried but i swear i cant see myself with any other. i let a flash back begin to play itself in my head as i remembered the night i finally told Tammy how i felt about her

~*~*FLASHBACK~*~*

i sat down at the curb of my street playing with a rose in my hand as Tammy rounded the corner and sped up when she saw me. i got out of school earlier than her because i am year 9 while she is in 7. she flashed me a dazzling smile and adjusted her plaid uniform skirt and sitting down next to me.

T- thats a really prety flower

me-Really? good because its for you

T-me? why me?

i smiled at her

me- just cuz... so how was your day?

T- it was great. Jeremy from science ate lunch with me because you weren't here

then she went on describing her awesome day and how her crush "jeremy from science" was a total gentleman and blah blah blah

T- so what do you think

me- huh?

T- you weren't listening to me were you? 

she laughed smiling at me 

me- no I'm sorry... I just don't want to hear about Jeremy

she looked a little hurt

T- oh well I'm sorry. fine then what do you want to hear about

me- i dont know...

T- whats up with you

me-I've got something on my mind

T- i  can see that. start talking i got to eat soon.

i chuckled. 

me- well i think i sort of...

T:sort of what?

me-I don't know. forget it

she reached for my hand

T- tell me

me- i like you.. alot actually

she dropped my hand slowly

T- Harry i..

Me- no its okay i understand.

i got up leaving the rose behind and walking towards my house opening the door and pushing past gemma and up to my room.

that night there was a knock at my window and when i opened it to see Tammy outside motioning for me to come down.

when i came outside the first thing that happened was that she pushed her lips agaisnt mine.

T- i like you too Harry... i just don't want to risk our friendship.... besides i am too young for a serious relationship i am only twelve

me- i don't want to put you into anything you don't want to be in i just wanted to know how you felt about me...

T- well i can't stop thinking about you and well a life without you sounds like hell.... i don't know today i realized i really like you but i want to take things slow if that's okay with you.

~*~*~END OF FLASH BACK~*~*~

we had failed epically at taking things slow. we immediately fell for each other and even though we were young we were inseparable. by the time she turned 14 we understood us even better and i thought we were going to end up together. we were so in love but we really didn't know anything about love so we didn't use that word. But deep down inside we knew how we felt about each other so it made completely no sense  when she left me. I got up and walked over to my bags i reached into the side pocket and pulled out a little matchbox and opened it. inside was the note that broke my heart. written on a small dark green sheet of paper in her terrible handwriting with the words that shot me dead. i don't know why i kept it but to me it felt like if that paper survived i wouldn't forget her... that way our love would still survive somehow. and that's what hurts the most. that i can still somehow believe in our love and that we could possibly make it somehow.