Back To December.. A Harry Styles FanFic

Chapter 13: Starry room

~HARRY'S POV~

i woke up to four guys storming into my room. angrily i shoved one of them in the nuts.

 me- go away!

Liam- do you know what time it is? wake up...

me- go. away.

Zayn- do you have a female in here?

Liam- ew have some respect, cover yourself!

Niall-WAKE UP HARRY!

Louis-get up Haz

Me- how did you get in here? 

i groaned and refused  to move.

Zayn- Harry what the fuck is going on?

he proceded to slam the glossy new magazine down on the bed, causing the body next to me to stir a bit.

"HARRY STYLES GONE WILD? IS HE LEAVING 1D?"

i read the headline and let it fall back onto the sheets.

me- all right i'm up, shit. what do you guys want?

Niall- we need to talk

Me- now? 

i waited for an answer but they all stared at me rudely. i shoved the red-head laying next to me awake.

Me-fine. wake up err.....Ashley. you need to go. last night was fun lets do it agian.. soon maybe. 

i then began to hand her clothes to her.

Ashley- my name is Amanda

Me- potato tomato same shit. i had fun, the doors that way.

Zayn stared at me mouth wide open and i shrugged.

i laid back in my bed and reached for the bottle of Hennesey next to me.

nial- what is wrong with you eh? you're on a downward spiral. nobody can say anything to you without getting a reaction. whats going on lad?

nobody understood what i was going through. everybody just wants to judge me nobody gets my pain. i know it feels like I'm whining but i have had my heart ripped out so many times by the girl i used to think loved me.

Louis- look, Harry we know how you are feeling but..

Me- you know how I'm feeling? nah i don't think you do. do you wake up every morning knowing that Eleanor doesn't love you the way you love her? no don't think so. so don't even say you know how i feel because you don't.  

Niall- well i have. and the one thing i know for sure is that pouting about it, or ruining your life isn't going to make her love you anymore.  going to her and telling her how you feel might.

i rolled my eyes.

me- Ive tried that already... 

Zayn- Tammy is leaving today

i looked at him weirdly.

me- that's a good thing. i feel like we do need to be on separate continents.

Liaam- you need to talk to her

me- no

Niall- WOULD YOU STOP BEING SO STUBBORN FOR ONE SECOND?!? 

i stared at the usually calm and care free now.

me- what do you guys expect from me?

Zayn- talk to her... she needs you

me- yeah that's why she is cutting me out from her life right?

Zayn- you dont ow how badly i want to tell you but... its not our place. you need her and she needs you.

me- she is not the same. she is a mother

Niall shook his head.

Niall- you idiot! don't let her walk away

me- i dont care

Louis- if you let her leave now Haz, i can almost guarantee you that you will never get her back again.

i fell silent for a while. i didn't have a clever remark for this one. after consideration i said some words i never thought would dare to exit my mouth.

Me- i can live without Tammy. 

Can you Harry?

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I KNOW IT HAS BEEN FOREVER AND I APOLOGIZE ITS JUST THAT I HAD FORGOT ABOUT THIS. I WILL TRY TO POST AS MUCH A POSSIBLE FROM  NOW ON BUT I MAKE NO PROMISES

xoxo -T