Back To December.. A Harry Styles FanFic

Chapter 20: Stars and Sips

~HARRY'S POV~

                     I lay in the hotel room with one person on my mind.

I miss her.

I'm trying not to.

I'm trying to forget.

But as the moon slowly shifts its way through the skies i wondered why she wasn't with me.

I began to play memory after memory in my head over and over again. Trying to pick put which invent in history pushed her so far from me. What was it that i could have done that made her fall out of love with me so abruptly. They say when you are missing someone that they are probably feeling the same, but I don't think it's possible for her to miss me. She shows no remorse for what happened. She didn't even properly end things with me.

             I played her words over in my head. "i failed" i wondered what she was speaking about. She failed her daughter? i mean i have no care for the child besides the humane side of things. Of course i don't want anything bad to happen to an innocent child but at the same time the child was conceived with another man and that i couldn't stand for. Sorry for being so detailed but the simply though of another man deep in Tammy, releasing himself in the woman that was supposed  to be mine forever made my skin crawl. Envy. It has the ability to combust a wildfire from an innocent candle flame. Burning down everything at an uncontrollable speed. It consumes the conscious and breathes heavy words of misery down your spine leaving nothing but a burnt sensation in your empty heart. I felt as if i was slowly going crazy.

                The more i thought bout it the more i wanted to scream. I made my way over to my handy bottle of rum. 

Me- dear friend

I was talking to a drink, yup I'm definitely crazy.

I pushed the cool rim of the bottle closer to my lips and tilted that sucker to a steeper angle and let the  fire into my throat. As i chugged i watched the liquid drain from its bottle and in to my system. I was so into getting wasted i didn't notice the door open.

Liam- slow down Jack sparrow

I took a break from my beverage and glared at him.

Me- what do you want?

Liam- thought id come relieve you of some of your self pity. Wanna talk mate?

Me- yes. Why are you sleeping with Tammy?

Liam- we've been through this already Harry, I'm not sleeping with her.

Me- then why do you keep talking to her?

Liam- because shes a friend. A great one too. Shes a sweetheart

Me- i know how sweet she is! that's why i don't want you to see her anymore

 Liam- look, Harry i am in no way trying to be with Tammy

Me- i know. I just don't want any of you around her or that thing

Liam-HARRY!

Me- i'm sorry but i cant feel any sympathy for that child. It just angers me that she would even name her love child Darcy! i always wanted to name my first daughter Darcy.

Liam- mate i understand you're angry and confused but listen, tomorrow i want you to meet up with Tammy. She told me she wants to talk to you.

Me- about what?

Liam- everything