Back To December.. A Harry Styles FanFic

Chapter Four: my life ended then

~TAMMY~

the entire ride home i sat there blubbering like a baby as my daughter looked at me as if i was a manic. she cuddled up neck to me and i kept crying. you do not understand how much i missed him. so much. i spent most of these past years trying to think that he would be doing better without me there. better without Darcy. now i guess i have to explain why the hell i left my heart in Holmes chapel. i got pregnant with harry's baby. and he had just gotten accepted on the x factor and his career was just taking off and i didn't want to ruin things for him so i left. i came to America to live with my dad.

~*~*~FLASHBACK~*~*~

i had been feeling sick the whole day so i just stayed in bed with the covers over my head. i closed my eyes to sleep for a while and i dreamt of harry. i hadn't seen him in a while so when i woke up from that dream i was almost in tears. i missed him so much the last time i saw him was about a week ago when he came back to visit us. he could only stay for two days so on his last day.... he made love to me. and the last thing i saw of him was his face on top of mine after we were done. he said how much he felt for me and he looked so perfect under the dim lights that escaped from the bathroom. i shook my head. the more i remembered harry the more i missed him. i could feel my stomach being super queasy and i had some type of cramp. speaking of cramps i hadn't gotten any in a while so i was annoyed when i felt this i was so glad i hadn't gotten my period in a while good thing because my cramps are the worst. Freeze. i hadn't gotten my period in a while. oh my God. Weren't you supposed to get those right after sex? i began to panic. i couldn't be... i couldn't be right? what about harry?  his career was just starting and girls were beginning to die for him imagine what people would say when they find out he got his 14 year old girlfriend pregnant. gosh Tammy calm down. you don't even know for sure. okay breath. breath.... breath. your not breathing i open my mouth and began to gasp for air. sucks being asthmatic. i got up who could i call? i had no friends. i put my head in my lap and began to hyperventilate. i needed a pregnancy test and i was pretty sure the drug store two blocks away was still open and carried pregnancy tests

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that night i had come home to terrified to take the test so i trashed it and later my mom found it. she forced me to take the test and when it came out positive my entire world came crashing on top of me but sadly the only thing i could think of was Harry and how this would affect him so that's why i left. i moved in with my dad in America because my mom didn't even want me in her house anyways. i left for him. the first 5 months of my pregnancy was filled with me just being depressed. took allot out of me to not go running back to harry. it took a while but i finally nursed my self back to sanity. i had to be strong for my baby. i had to. i wasn't going to bring her into a world and expect her to be strong and independent if i couldn't even eat without Harry.

the day Darcy was born.... it was magical she was so beautiful and delicate. i had only been in love once so i knew the feeling immediately when i first held my angel in my arms. i had to name her Darcy because i knew how badly he wanted his first daughter to be named Darcy and even though he might never meet her in his entire life..... if i named her Darcy then i would always have a part of  Harry with me.... and that seemed enough for me.