Back To December.. A Harry Styles FanFic

Chapter 24: panic attack

~Tammy's pov~

I pressed my chapped lips against my knees as I sat silently in front of Darcy's hospital room. Why was this happening to me? All I wanted was to make Harry happy to make my daughter happy I was so tired of this all the stress, of this pain I just wanted to give up I really wanted to give up. Inside the room where my love and my daughter where I can hear him singing to her, it broke my heart. I could tell he was going to be a great father, you Could hear simply by just the way he hit every single note perfectly as if he didn't want to let her down, as if she was worthy of the perfect symphony all choreographed just for her tiny little ears. He sang is if the world depend on it, I think if he didn't sing to her standards he could loose her. Each song, each Melody, each harmony, Harry was perfection.

I heard the door open. I looked up from where I was seated to see Harry's green eyes looking at me. They were filled with disappointment Innovative features. Her to see him looking at me like that, I never thought he would ever have such a reason to hate me. Well, nevermind. I knew he was going to hang with you, it was just waiting to happen.

Harry-Excuse me

Me-Haz can we please talk?

I knew he could hear my voice trembling with each one Word. The room grew silent. Everyone had halted their separate conversations just hear the drama that was about to go down between us too. Niall, who was scarfing down bags of potato chips stopped mid crunch and whipped his blonde head of hair around and stared at me

Harry-Talk about what, you lied, Leslie, we're done, it wasn't for her I wouldn't want to see you ever again. I can't believe you. I loved you. Gave you everything I had and you just threw it in my face. I'm so done tammy, I'm so doing with you.

With each word he said my heart began to tremble, it cracked and billions of pieces. I could hear it. And I like an earthquake, I could feel the different tectonic plates rubbing against each other as my heart began to disintegrate itself.

Me-Harry please, please don't say that. I'm sorry, I thought I was doing what was right! I love you! Please harry! Harry! Please. Don't leave me. Please!

Harry-just look at yourself I don't even know what to think I need some time. I. I need some time.

He stormed out of the waiting room, through the doors, and to the stairs I could hear his footsteps running down each step, collided with his feet and made a thundering sound echoing through the building. I could hear all of this because everybody else was silent. No one dared to make a sound. The sound of a chair scraping against the tile floors screeched are my tears I winced. I looked and saw. Liam approaching me slowly.

Me-oh Liam what have I done!

Liam-relax Tammy relax.

Me-oh no, oh no, oh no!

Liam-look at me, look at me! Look it's all going to be okay. Just breathe okay? Do you hear me? I could feel my chest constricting my air was running out. The only things put into my head was Harry............Harry. Only Harry. I needed him. I needed him.

It became obvious to me I was in the beginning of the panic attack. My eyes flickered up to Liam and I took one last look at him.

Liam-guys! Guys! Tammy breathe! look at me !

How fitting was it that we just happened to be in a hospital. Everyone stood up from their seats and the earlier silence had converted itself into shock. My father was hovering over me.

Dad-I will kill that little bastard. What? because he doesn't want child he takes it out on you! Somebody get help for my daughter now!

I was able to shake my head vigorously. It wasn't Harry's fault it was mine. All mine.

The nurses that sit with their glasses perched on the bridges on their beak like noses, were up and near me within seconds. I felt one of their nails at the back of my head where my hair curls unruly and begins to fade into my neck. The other has her callused index and middle fingers stabbing the soft flesh above my collar bone. "Her heart is beating. I want everyone to step back and relax" I could hear her voice.

Everyone grew silent exempting the two nurses conversing over a walkie talkie with some other officials.

The silence slowed the next interruptions to be heard loud and clearly.

"What the bloody hell happened!" A British voice crooned.