Chaelisa/Jensoo- Love Unexpectedly

Kiss and Make Up

LISA's POV

I finally went home and found Chaeyoung, lying all curled up on my side of the bed with Bangu in her arms. I carefully put the food I was holding and gently placed it in our bedside table. Chaeyoung was holding Bangu so tight that even if I was trying to take it off from her, her hands refused to let go of it.

"Please Unnie, don't take Bangu from me."

"He's all I have right now." Chaeyoung mumbled sadly not even daring to open her eyes. She must have mistaken me for Jennie or Jisoo Unnie.

"Did she arrive safely at the train station?" she asked again with her voice trembling which felt like a thousand stab in my heart.

Chaeyoung knew that I ran away?

She's not really sleeping when I said goodbye to her earlier?

She knew that I was leaving and she let me?

And despite all the pain I caused her, she still chose look after me and my safety.

Oh God. What did I ever do to deserve someone as pure as her? I don't deserve her.

I suddenly remember Jennie's words earlier.

"Aren't you killing her already?"

"You're killing all the goodness in her for running away from her over and over!"

"And for what? For believing that stupid voice in your chest."

"She faithfully waited for you Lisa."

"She prayed, hell, she even made a deal with God that she will never ask for anything else again nor even complain at everything life will throw at her if God would just let you live."

"You see? You can leave and walk out on her life and she would still accept it with a painful smile knowing that even if the two of you didn't end up together, she would still be happy cause atleast you're alive and that's all that matters to her."

"Can you see how twisted that is? How unfair that is for her?"

"It's like accepting your death but you still have to be grateful about it."

"Can you really do that to Chaeyoung?"

Oh God.What have I done?

I'm so fuckin stupid and selfish.

Why did I ever let that consume me?

I let it consumed me and ran away believing that it would be for the best with out even thinking the consequences it would cause her.

I let my fear consumed me again and now it wasChaeyoung who's paying the price.

Oh God I'm so fuckin stupid.

I gently slipped under her blanket and snuggled closer to her and that's the only time Chaeyoung did open her eyes. I sadly stared at her tear-stained face and Chaeyoung finally broke down as continuous painful sobs finally escaped her mouth.

"I'm sorry Love."

"I'm here now."

"I will never leave your side ever again."

"I'm sorry.. Please forgive me.." I whispered crying but Chaeyoung just shook her head and bury her face in my neck.

She cried and whimpered silently, releasing all of her suppressed emotions that she's barely keeping for a very long time. And for weeks that she's been into a never ending emotional roller coaster, it was the first time I saw Chaeyoung finally gave in and brokedown.