JOHN POV
Dying isn't what you'd expect it to be like.
It is still a total shit show, though.
Watching the people you love find out you died, it's... something on a whole other astronomical level. You'd much rather not watch. you'd rather walk up the steps to that glowing light and never look back, keeping the memories of your loved ones in your mind. Only the happy memories.
It broke my heart to see Alex. Every day, I'd watch him vigorously scribble down letters to me that I'd read over his shoulder. Every day, I'd hear him screaming in agony without saying a word. I was the cause of that broken boy that stood in front of me.
I knew he would be okay eventually, that he would pick himself up again and move on. He would forget about me and go back to the Caribbean and pretend that all of this never happened. Maybe that would've been better for both of us.
But he didn't.
During his seventh year, he visited my grave every weekend. he told me stories about the others, and sometimes they would be there too. I would smile and remember the times we had together, even if the times we were actually together were short-lived.
And then Dumbledore gave him a job as the Ancient Runes teacher because the old one had retired. He talked to me about his anxiety about teaching the new exchange students. Every year he would tell me that he didn't want them to have to go through what we went through. I didn't want that for these students either. If only I had become one of those ghosts in the grand hall. But sadly that's not how the paranormal world works.
He loved me. He told me so himself.
I loved him too. With all of my heart. There was no other person I could love in that way, so he had just taken up the entire space. Even the space that was supposed to be for my father.
My father didn't deserve a place in my heart to start, I had been generous.
He killed me.
And Alex killed him.
And I saved Alex's life. That's all that mattered to me in those last few seconds of my life. That he was still alive.
He stayed alive.
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Prophecy ~ Lams (COMPLETED)
FanfictionI ADVISE YOU NOT TO READ THIS BECAUSE MOST OF IT IS TOTAL CRAP BUT IF YOU WANT TO THEN GO AHEAD I GUESS In a part of a new system from the International Wizard Association, Alexander Hamilton, John Laurens, and others have been called to Hogwarts to...
