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15. the truth

Anastasia:

the next morning came in & the sun shined on my face.
and yet, it didn't even feel like I slept.

The memories of last night came flooding into my mind.
George. Theodore. The abuse. The sex.
Everything ..

I couldn't bear seeing Theodore or even, George.

I walked into the common room, everyone was sitting talking to each other.

Theodore was nowhere to be found.
Did I want to tell the group about him drinking?
Did I want to explain the abuse that happened to me last night?

"Stassie! .. Oh .. Are you alright?" asked Pansy as she put her hand on my shoulder.

I flinched. Hard.

I quickly cleared my throat.
"I'm alright." I smiled softly. "I am sure your more then alright those purple marks on your neck say so" she laughed.

I softly laughed with her.
Was the marks from George or Theodore? ..

I made my way to the bathroom, quickly. Hoping, I wouldn't bump into anyone especially Draco.

I stood in front of the mirror, hands over the sink.

I couldn't bear looking at myself.

In all honesty, I didn't feel the tears come down my face until I had finally looked at the mirror.

I let the tears fall.
I let the sobs escape.

"Anastasia .." said a voice.
I quickly turned, wiping my tears away.

"Ginny." I said. "Are you alright?" she asked.

People asking me this question makes me question the answer ..

"I'm alright. Thank you" I said, softly. "Your not. It's ok to not be alright, Stassie" she said.

And with those words, I broke down, again.

Ginny quickly hugged me, letting me cry on her shoulder.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" she asked.

I don't know ..
Do I wanna say how I hooked up with your brother to break an unbreakable vow and to use him just to scare my parents.
Yet, at the same time, I may be falling for him.

Also, adding to the fact, that my abusive ex came back from rehab due to his drinking problems which causes him to do horrible things.
None of the group knows of the abuse which he actually did abuse me last night so he picked up where he started.
. Oh .. and he went back into drinking ...

"No .." I replied.
Of course, you wish you can yell this out to the world ..

"Anastasia .. I know your lying. It's better you say how your feeling then instead of hiding it. The more you hide it, your eventually going to hit your breaking point." she said.

"I know .. and your not wrong. I-I just can't right now." I said. "I understand but .. just know, I'm always here to talk." she replied.

I softly smiled at her as she returned one back.

I make my way back into the common room. Yet, the door revealed ..

Draco on top of Theodore, punching him as Blaise and Mattheo tried to pull them off each other.
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George:

The next morning, I woke up happier.
                  happier then ever ...