60 days of learning love ✔️

Part 29

Olivia POV

I haven't spoken to Mia since I kissed her, and I know that sounds like a shitty thing to do, but it's not like she's spoken to me either. In fact, she probably hates me.

I don't know when I started feeling a different emotion towards Mia other than hate, maybe it was when she invited me to her party, or maybe it was when we made our first ever inside joke, I have no idea. I don't think I even want to know. Maybe I if I just keep ignoring her then these feelings will go away, there's a lot of maybes running through my head, but only one of them is definite...

Maybe I'm not as straight as I though I was.

I guess it makes sense to be attracted to someone of the same gender, my mind is just exploring its options since I had never had a boyfriend until a couple of weeks ago. Well, it's been exactly 3 weeks and 1 day. I haven't spoken to Mia since I kissed her, not this Monday, but the Monday before (nearly two weeks ago), and it's now Saturday. And also, I have 37 days left until I have to fall in love with Noah.

Time is really not on my side and that number just keeps on dropping, Noah keeps trying to reassure me that it'll be fine, or that we will fall in love, but I can't help but wonder if there's more to love than spending time together... I mean, I only love my family because I've spent so much time with them and they know me like no other, so why isn't it the same for other people? Love is just a  simple 4 letter word, I don't understand why it's such a difficult act when it's a simple word. Loving should be easy, I spend everyday after school with Noah, we go to the movies, the cafe, restaurants, my house, the park, literally anywhere we can go. I've gotten to know him in the past weeks, and he's far more interesting than I gave him credit for.

Like, seriously, he's so interesting that it puts me to shame, and I'm like, one of the most fabulous people you will ever meet. It's scary sometimes if I'm being honest.

He's become my best friend in such a short time, well, he's my only friend so I guess that makes sense.

From: Scaredy Cat 🙀

Hey, so I've just left the cafe, I'll meet you at the park in around 30 mins, Tyler wouldn't let me steal any cakes so unfortunately I didn't bring snacks 🙄

Sent at 10:23 am

I smiled down at my phone and immediately put my shoes on and made my way out of the door. I may not be in love with the boy, but I still loved hanging out with him, like I said, he's my best friend.

From: Olivia 🙄

On my way! And don't worry, I've brought some snacka dacka doos :)

Sent at 10:24 am

From: Scaredy Cat 🙀

"Snacka dacka doos"? Really? How old are you again?

Sent at 10:24 am

I snickered at his message before placing my phone back into my pocket and heading towards the park. It wasn't a long journey, but it did feel longer than usual.

My head was clouded with thoughts of Noah, Mia and even Tyler. They seemed to have all found themselves in my life, whether they were a side character like Tyler, or a main character like Noah or Mia, they were all somehow connected to me. Maybe Noah feels the exact same way, but apart from Tyler being the side character, it's Mia. It's a weird way to look at the world, through the pages of a book, but it's a new perspective on things.

Me and Noah are both struggling with what we feel, and what we should be feeling, that much is obvious.

I wonder if Noah has kissed Tyler yet like I have with Mia, I mean, you can't deny that they are a cute couple. Tyler also joined the school, he sits with me and Noah during lunch and they basically end up feeding each other every time. It's like I'm the third wheel, when I'm actually the girlfriend. But for some odd reason, I never seem to mind it. I should though, shouldn't I? Seeing my boyfriend flirt with another man right in front of me, I should feel something, but instead I feel nothing apart from... Comfort? I dunno, I just know I'm not mad about it.