𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐗 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

Nightmares ( Exhausted Levi X Reader )

"Finally!" I shouted as I got down of my horse, me and the others just got back from a expedition and I'm literally so tired right now, many of our comrades died throughout this expedition which is the reason why everyone is so down. Everyone eventually got down on their horses wanting to go rest, I also went to my room to freshen up, and after check on my boyfriend, Levi

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"Love?" I got in his room and scanned the room, I saw him sitting on the corner. I then slowly went towards him kneeling in front of him as I gently put my hands on his shoulder, he was hugging his knees and he lowered his head, when he felt my touch he look up at me, I see tears in his eyes and I gently pulled him close  putting him in my embrace, he cried on my shoulder hugging me back

"Shh it's okay I'm here, let it all out" I said in a soothing tone, I know his having a really hard time right now, his whole squad got wiped out and he's the only one left with Eren.

"it's all my fault, if only I didn't-" I immediately cut him off and brush my fingers to his hair

"Stop it, it's not your fault okay? You may be the humanities strongest soldier but that doesn't mean you can save all of them, you couldn't do anything Levi, you didn't know this was gonna happen" I tried to comfort him but he still didn't stop crying. He blamed his self for his squad's death, he left them because he needed to go to Erwin to confront the female titan, but it got away and killed his squad

"But still I could've done something, then maybe they'll still be alive" He whimpered and I quickly cup his cheeks and stare deeply in his eyes

"Listen, Just think of it this way, they are now free from this cruel world, they can do finally be at peace, they can now stop fighting for their life, they can finally rest" I tried to look at the positive side because that's the only thing I can do so he wouldn't feel that bad about losing his squad

"I know even humanities strongest soldier can't save everyone at the same time, but I know you tried your best to do so, and for that I'm so proud of you, you did well Love" I place a kiss on his forehead, telling him that I appreciate his efforts. Levi may seem that he doesn't care about anyone but he tried his best to save his comrades

"They wouldn't want to see their Captain in this state don't you think?" I asked and he just nodded slowly. He knows that his squad, everyone. Wouldn't like to see him crying because of their death, I know that they're proud and grateful for their Captain

"I'll always be here for you okay? I won't leave you" I connected our foreheads together and hugged him tightly

"Don't you dare leave me Y/n" He said in between sobs and I nodded while smiling

"I wouldn't, even if I can, I would always choose to be with you no matter what" I assured him, and luckily he calmed down

I slowly lead Levi to his bed since I can feel that he's getting sleepy, I mean I can't blame him, I'm quite feeling sleepy myself

"Try to get some sleep okay?" I slowly push him on the bed and we both laid down

"B-but the nightmares are getting worse" I know he's scared, and because of what happened the nightmares might become worse because of the death of his squad. I gently guided his head to my chest, so he can hear my heart beating

"Relax, Listen to my heart beating, that's the proof that you're not alone in this world" I gently massage his scalp earning a small groan from him. I know he enjoys it everytime I do this, he always feel relax whenever I do this to him

"Don't try to fight the tiredness, rest now, You deserve it" I kiss his forehead, he nodded and buried his face further on my chest and he slowly drifted to sleep.

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Few hours later I was literally fighting the urge to fall asleep, but I needed to watch Levi. This days his nightmares became worse, he always dream of me dying too and feeling guilty because he couldn't do anything to save me. Of course it broke me so much, seeing the person you love be devasted because he wasn't able to save you in his dreams hurts so much

It's already been a couple of hours since Levi slept, you sigh in relief knowing he finally sleep more than he usually does. Before he sleep like 2-3 hours but few days ago it became less, I don't even think he sleeps anymore except now. Suddenly I heard him groan and he started moving and he started sweating too, I immediately tried to wake him up

"Levi! Levi wake up!" I shouted a little while shaking his shoulders. He bolted up while gasping, I immediately hug him embracing him

"Shh it's okay it's just another nightmare" I pat my back and he slowly hug me back. Once he calmed down I break the hug and I look at him with concern in my eyes

"Are you okay now?" I kiss his forehead and he slowly nodded

"You dreamt of me dying again?" I asked and he nodded avoiding my gaze. He Always feels ashamed whenever he dreams of me dying and not being able to save me

"I'm scared, what If my nightmares come true? What If one day, you die? And I couldn't even save you" He asked, his voice a little shaken because of his dream. I made him look at me, I smiled and caress his cheeks

"That won't happen don't worry, even if I die I'll force myself out of hell and will be with you no matter what" He still look a bit worried so I continued

"I know when something bad happens to me, you'll always be there to save me" tears then started to form from his eyes, he hugged me tighter burying his face in the crock of my neck

"What If come late? What If I can't save you?" He asked, his eyes meeting mine and there, his eyes displayed sadness and fear

"Then I'll save myself, I'll buy you time so you can reach me, so you can rescue me" I hugged him tighter and he did too. To be honest I'm also scared, I'm scared that maybe that day will come. I'm not scared of dying, I'm scared of leaving Levi in this world.

"You won't lose me Levi I made a promise, and I intend to keep that promise no matter what" I played with his hair, and I feel him finally calm down in my embrace

"You better do brat, I'm still gonna marry you after all of this" He broke the hug and he caress my cheeks and I blush because of his statement