I'm sad rn so I thought, why not make you sad too? ¯\_༼ ಥ ‿ ಥ ༽_/¯
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"Hangeeee! Just a few more hourss!" I jumped excitedly as our training for our squad ended
I recently just became a squad leader and I'm really trying to be good at it and so far I've gotten good feedbacks with it!
Also I'm dating Levi, yes as in the captain Levi. And it just so happens that today is our 3rd Anniversary and I'm excited on what our plans are for today. We usually celebrate it by waiting for each other on the rooftop and wait until the clock struck 12 and go on dates after
"OMGGG, yesss. Do you think this is the year where you two will you know, make me a auntie" Hange chimed while bumping my shoulders playfully
Hange has been begging me and Levi to make her a auntie eversince we started dating. According to her, she wants to be a auntie before she dies
"I don't think so Hange. Maybe a few more years" I smiled and she pouted. She always does that face whenever we say no to her in these topics
"But- we won't know when we'll die so you guys need to do it now so we can see little Levi and little Y/n running around!" She giggled as she imagines mine and Levi's kids running all over the place
"That's the point Hange. We won't know when we'll die, we don't want to bring a kid into this world when we're not even sure if we'll make it the next day. We want to have kids when everything is safe and peaceful" She let out a sigh, understanding our situation. Bringing a child into this world without looking at the risk can be really messy and the child will only suffer
"I guess you do have a point. Fine, I'll wait for a couple more years" I then gave her a hug which she gladly returned. I'm lucky I have her as a friend
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I'm the first one to finish my duties so I headed straight to the rooftop. I actually thought that Levi will be here first because he finished training earlier than me
"Erwin must've called him" I rarely saw the commander today too because he's been too busy to even go around and see how the training is going
We also have a upcoming expedition that's why everyone has been really busy preparing and training. Even Hange is busy with her experiments with explosives
"This week has been rough for everyone. I hope he got to rest these days" I then started overthinking things, like maybe he's too tired and I'm being a burden to him and stuff, and that maybe I should just let him rest first
"But, this'll be the only time that I'll get to talk to him" I pouted, feeling dissapointed. I try to be as understanding as possible because both of us can be caught up in work. Besides I want him to prioritize his work over me because it's more important. But sometimes I can't help but feel sad when he isn't giving me much attention
"I hope we can have atleast a day with just us"
-------- 10 PM --------
"Why is he not here yet? He didn't forget the date did he? I mean, he doesn't usually check the calendar but still" Now I'm really starting to overthink things. I've been here for an hour and he's still not here yet.
Honestly, I'm pretty tired myself. I just feel like sleeping because my head is aching so bad but here I am, waiting for him
"When are you going to get here?" I rubbed my eyes and shaked my head because I started to feel sleepy. I haven't gotten enough sleep in days because I need to wake up earlier than my squad
-------- 11 PM -------
"He'll go here right? He's never missed a month or a year!" I'm starting to get really frustrated now. Levi usually doesn't miss this kind of thing! This is our thing every month/year!
"Why would he miss it now?! No, he wouldn't! I'm sure he knows the date today!" I started walking while grabbing my hair in frustration. No, he wouldn't do this to me. Maybe he's just in a meeting with Erwin.
He'll come, yes. He'll come
"He'll come here" I whispered while looking at the sky
------- 11:59 -------
"He won't come" I whispered as tears started to run down my eyes. I sat down on the floor and covered my face while crying silently
I'm really frustrated now but I don't know how to let it out. Everyone is sleeping and I don't want to shout until I ran out of breath or until I feel better because I don't want to wake everyone up
"Happy 3rd Anniversary" I whispered to myself as soon as the clock struck 12
He never came. He missed it, for the first time. He missed it
"I guess it's true. There's always a first time in everything" I'm still crying because of it. My brain keeps telling me that I'm just overreacting and I shouldn't be crying this bad rn
I didn't expect him to miss this. I know he's busy but still, this day is very important for us. Am I selfish for wanting to celebrate this day with him? A day without work wouldn't hurt right?
"I didn't know it'll hurt like this. I gotta admit, you dissapointed me real bad this time Levi" Or maybe I shouldn't have expect something in the first place. Maybe it's my fault for expecting that he'll be here. But I was used to it, is it really my fault?
Should I stay here for a bit more? Maybe he'll come, maybe he'll apologize for being late, maybe he'll go here with a surprise, maybe he's just caught up with something. I refuse to believe that he forgot this day, the day that is special for the both of us
I waited for a hour. I waited because I thought he was coming, but he didn't. He never came, I never saw a Levi come here
I made my way to my barracks with my puffy eyes, I already thought of a excuse when someone asks me why my eyes are puffy
When I was about to go inside I saw Levi with Petra. It looked like they just came outside, Petra's laughing and he has his stoic expression
"Where have you been?" My voice was still hoarse from all the crying but that really isn't important right now
"Oh Y/n. Petra, can you go from here?" Wow the audacity. Sometimes I hate that he is a gentleman
"Yes captain. I look forward to going out with you again" She smiled and went to go to her room. I glared at her back and turned my attention to Levi
"I look forward to going out with you again? What does that mean?" I was mad at this point. I mean how could he?! I was waiting for him and this is what I get in return?!
"Chill Y/n. We just went out for a walk, that's all" I scoffed at him. A walk? That's all? Is he fucking serious?
"That's all? Are you fucking serious right now? You have a girlfriend right here and you chose to go out with another girl?!" A tear went down on my eyes but I quickly wiped it as I looked at him with anger
"I came here but you didn't open the door" I gaped at him. I'm literally speechless right now and I'm trying my best to not slap him hard across the face
"I wasn't here because I was waiting for you up there! I waited for you for hours because it's our 3rd anniversary and this is what I get?! Hours Levi! I sat there for hours waiting for you to show up there! And when I got back from waiting for you I'll see you taking a walk with another girl?!" I couldn't help it. I started shouting. I didn't care if people heard us, I can't take this.
"So much for a anniversary. I hate you" With that I closed my door right at his face
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