𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐗 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

Leave (Levi X Reader)

My mood has went from bad to worse so now prepare yourself for another sad chapter :)

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"What do you mean by you're leaving?" I raised my brow as tears starts to threaten to fall down my eyes

"I'm leaving Y/n. You knew that from the very beginning" It's true. I knew that he was leaving, but I didn't know it's today!

"But we agreed Levi! We agreed that you'll stay for a couple more months!" Sometimes I really can't understand him. He does this! He leaves when you don't expect it!

"I know. But it looks like I'm that type of person now. I break promises" No! He never does this! He's the type of person that will always keep his words! That's why I didn't see this coming! I didn't expect him to do this now. Not when we already agreed

"B-but you said you'll stay until I become a official scout? Levi, what happened to do that? What the hell changed?" Tears kept streaming down my eyes as I forced him to look at me, but that only made it worse because he's completely emotionless

"But maybe I'm really that easy to let go of, I mean who am I to blame you right?" I scoffed as I tried to wipe the tears that kept falling down my eyes but it seems like it'll never end

"No matter what I say, no matter how much assurance I give you. You'll always think that way right?" He laughed sarcastically which made me look at him. I was stunned, he's right. I always think that because everytime that I remember that he's living I always question myself. I always ask myself if I'm even enough

"Why? That's the reason right? Because Levi, if I was enough you would stay" I sadly laughed as tears continued falling down my eyes

"If that's what you think of me, what more can I say to prove you wrong?" At this point, anger was consuming me. I was no longer thinking. My mind and heart is too full of anger

"I don't know. We already agreed Levi" It hurts so bad. This is his first time breaking his promise so I'm really shock

"Why are you leaving? Give me a reason"

"I want to say that I found a girl and I like her so much but we both know that's not true. So let's just say na it's a selfish decision. It has nothing to do with your so called 'worth' and idk if you can still change my mind" I didn't know what to do. I'm afraid of losing him but at the same time I couldn't do anything to make him stay. I feel so helpless

"Levi, I'm begging you. Please, just don't leave me" I hugged him tight and buried my face on his chest, refusing to let go. He hugged me back and kisses the top of my head

"Remember this, never beg for someone to stay. Right people will always choose to stay no matter what so don't beg because I'm not one of them" I kept shaking my head as a no as I cried harder. He is one of them! He is that person!

"Levi please! I do not care how cliche it sounds but you're the one who makes me happy and you're like my human diary! My whole world revolves around you Levi, what will happen to me if you leave?" I feel like my legs are about to give up on me, luckily I'm hugging him so I didn't fall. My eyesight also became blurry because of all the tears

"You said it yourself Y/n, please. Learn to be independent"

"Y/n, please. Let me go" In our whole relationship I tried not to make him feel like he needed to beg me to do something or have something. I always do his request as long as it won't get me in trouble. But now? Now he's begging me to let him go, what the hell should I do?

I feel like it's unfair, its unfair that I'm willing to stay if he tells me to but no matter how much I beg, he will never stay. He will just extend for a couple of months but he will still leave

"I asked you multiple times to leave, why did you stay?" I pulled out from the hug and looked at him confused before giving ourselves some distance

"Because I love you, isn't that obvious?" I didn't know where he's going with this. He does know I love him, I always tell him that and I always make him feel my love too

"I don't feel the same way. That's why I wanted, want and still want to leave" I was speechless, I didn't know what to say. My heart aches so much. H-how? How can he not feel the same way? Was it all just lies? After years of dating, he was just lying?

"Go. Leave"

I miss him :)