𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐗 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

Order (Forced Levi X Reader)

"Well hello there commander, what a pleasant surprise that you came all the way to this lovely castle" you greeted Erwin while giggling

"Yeah what's this important meeting that you went all the way here?" Hange asked after you three went in where yours and Levi's squad waited with Levi

"I'm glad all of you are complete" he then sat down while  you leaned on the wall behind you

"Levi and Petra will get married after the expedition" you all look at him shock but didn't say anything about it

You stayed still as you felt like you just become deaf as Erwin's word rings on your head repeatedly

You and Levi have known each other eversince he joined the scouts and you guys have been friends too, you would lie when you say you didn't didn't have any feelings for him

"Excuse me" you excused yourself and  you got out of there because you felt like the air was suffocating you

You went to your room locking the door, you slid down the wall while crying silently

You cried all night not even sleeping, of course you would hear a couple of knocks but you wouldn't answer and you'll just keep quiet

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The Next Morning

You went down and saw that they're complete even Hange and Erwin were there guess they spend the night here

"Y/n come join us eat breakfast" Hange invited you with a smile

You look around and saw him your eyes lock together but you quickly broke it and looked at Hange

"I'll pass" you politely said

"But you didn't even eat dinner last night" Oluo insisted but you didn't even care about that now

"It's fine, it's not the first time" you went out, away from everyone. You just felt like being alone will be more easier. You just don't want to talk to anyone atm

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It's already been a week and you've been avoiding everyone, only talking when necessary. You've avoided him as well, knowing it'll be better if your feelings for him fade

It hurts of course but you needed to, it's also a sign of  respect because he's technically engaged to Petra. It was for the better because even if he just look at you, or even talk to you, you're afraid, you're afraid that you'll fall deeper for him

Everyday its a struggle to not look at him, to not talk to him. You've been so used with him by your side. But you've already accepted the truth that he will not be yours

You look at the beautiful night on the rooftop of the tower as tears went down your eyes. You look above and adored the night

"Do I really deserve this? Is this really enough?" You asked yourself while crying silently

"I'm tired, I just...want to launch myself towards him...tell him how I really feel...but I cant" you whispered and you let out a shaky sigh

"He'll be happy...and I'll be miserable...why does this world need to be this cruel?" You closed your eyes letting your tears fall

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"Y/n come out now dinner is ready" Eld knocked but you just didn't feel like eating atm

"I'll be there" you shouted back

You were really not going down just yet, you usually eat when everyone is asleep so no one would talk to you