𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐗 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

Rooftop (Levi X Reader)

I went out of my barrack to go get some fresh air, I have been trying to sleep but nothing has worked. We had lost dozens of our comrades once more and it has been bothering me, like it always does.

We had saved people but a lot of people also perished because of us. Erwin died, and so did a lot more people. The kids are traumatized, and one of them even died, if not for Levi the kid wouldn't be brought back to life. However, at what cost? Erwins life. We lost a great leader today and everyone inside is mourning.

Me and Erwin had become close, seeing as we have worked together for years now. Seeing how he died really did a huge damage within me. Are we even supposed to celebrate that we were able to get to the basement? How was that supposed to make us happy when the person who wanted to enter the basement the most, died right in front of us.

I went to the rooftop, to ball my eyes out and hopefully find comfort in that. However as I reached the door to the rooftop, I heard someone else's sobs. I wanted to go and give them privacy but curiosity got the best of me, I slowly opened the door and entered.

There, I saw Levi. He's a Captain like me and he and Hanji are the closest to Erwin. He was the one who needed to make a decision whether to make Erwin live or the kid.

I didn't say anything, nor did I dare make a sound. I just stood by the door and watched him.

"I'm sorry Erwin" Was all the Captain said, that was all he managed to say in between sobs. I couldn't help but silently cry also, I looked up at the star and wondered if he's doing well up there.

Levi fell down on the ground, that was when I approached him.

"Captain" I softly said as I placed my hand on his shoulder.

When he saw me, he immediately wiped the tears on his eyes and tried to stand up but failed.

"Y/n, w-what are you doing here?" He asked using his nonchalant tone.

I sighed before speaking.

"You know, no one expects you to be strong despite losing your best friend. You can be weak, we all know it caused you pain" I know he's in pain. I know that he wanted to save Erwin but he couldn't let him live this life anymore. It was time that we put Erwin to rest.

"I can't let anyone know. I can't let them know how much it pained me. I can't let them know that Humanities Strongest Soldier is falling apart right now, our enemies might take it as a opportunity to attack if they found out" He quickly got up and looked at me with all seriousness. I smiled and nodded my head, agreeing with him.

"They might. I wouldn't put it pass them honestly. But, this loss will only make us stronger Captain. We now have more reason to not spare their lives because they took a lot of people that mattered to everyone. It is okay to mourn and cry captain, cry until you feel exhausted and be ready to fight the next day. As sad as it may sound, that's our life" I smiled sadly as I gaze above. I wonder what it would feel like to be free. Is the commander enjoying his freedom right now? Or does he regret not being with us anymore?

"You can let all your feelings out and I won't judge you Captain"

It was silent for a few minutes then I suddenly heard sobs coming from Levi. I glanced at him and saw him being vulnerable. Tears continued to stream down his eyes as screams followed.

I let him do whatever he wants. I watched him as he kicked everything he sees and I watched him as he begged and questioned the man above why he had to take Erwin. It honestly pained me to see the Captain like this, but this is necessary so that he can move forward from this tragedy.

He fell on the floor once more, now ducking his head down while crying. I slowly approached him and wrapped him in my embrace.

"It's okay Captain, we will avenge him" I swore. I will not let those who are at fault for this get away with killing our Commander. I will fight until my last breath.

This has taken a huge toll on all of us but we will recover, we will recover for the people who needed to sacrifice their lives just so we could win. Our war will not end here, this will be the beginning of a new war that they wouldn't see coming. We will bury them to the ground, we will take everything that they value just like what they did to us. We will not let our comrades sacrifices to go in vain.

"Don't worry, I know everyone is here. Everyone will be helping us, especially those who have unfortunately died. They will always fight along side us" He hugged me and cried even more. I will not forgive them for breaking every single one of us. I will crush them 100x more than this. I will make them feel all of our wrath.

I continued to embrace him until I could feel that he has calmed down. We both pulled away and shyly smiled at each other. We worked together multiple times but we had never really been alone during the years that we have worked together. Thus, the shyness.

"Are you alright now?" I asked to get the conversation going and to check on him.

"Yeah, thank you for staying" A smile formed on my face and I nodded.

"Always welcome Captain"

"If possible, can you not tell anyone about this?" I chuckled and nodded my head while he looked somewhere else while blushing.

"Not a problem Captain, I was going to keep it our secret anyway" He cleared his throat and nodded before thanking me.

"What brought you up here by the way?" He asked me.

"Oh, I was gonna get some fresh air. After what happened today, I just couldn't not sleep"

"Same thing goes for me. I was only supposed to be getting some air but I just found myself crying" The atmosphere became serious once again.

"That can't be helped. Everyone is basically mourning today" It is true. No one even bothered eating today, everyone lost their appetite. Not a lot of people even managed to go out of their barracks. Most of the people have either locked themselves inside their room or are out to mourn.

He only managed to nod in agreement.

"How are the kids you're looking after?" He has the finest kids, I must say. Everyone in his team are very well trained.

"One almost died but was able to be revived, the others are fine though" His voice was only a whisper, I barely even managed to hear what he said.

"Ah, that kid"

"Do you think my decision was wrong?" He suddenly asked out of nowhere. I sighed and played with my fingers.

"Honestly, no. I agree that the Commander had been through a lot and he deserves to be free from all of this. Erwin is great but he can also be irrational. Don't get me wrong, he is a great leader but sometimes he would go too far just to get what he wants" I smiled when I remember mine and Erwins memories together. I loved that side of him, I love the he was willing to pursue anything but that had it's own risk that he always took.

I looked at Levi and he was just staring down, he must be feeling guilty. Some people have been talking about how it was stupid to not choose the Commander but it was his time and we just have to accept that.

"Don't feel bad Captain, you made the right decision. I know that Erwin is proud of you right now. If he didn't believe that you will make the right call, he wouldn't have given you the cure" Sometimes I think that perhaps Erwin was ready to die there. He knew what he was getting himself into and yet he still did not back down.

We shared a couple more tears and ultimately decided to go back to our own barracks as someone else might see us up here.

"Thank you for tonight, Y/n. I really appreciate it" I nodded and walked through the door while he closely followed behind me.

"If you ever need someone, I'll be by your side"