A Glimpse in Paradise

Chapter 24

Unedited: Errors ahead

True to her words, Aviona came this morning after that night.

She keeps on walking back and forth while cursing, "You know what? Of all the billion people living here on earth, you were chosen to be cheated on. Those punk! Hideous bastards! Ang lakas ng loob manloko! Putangina! Saktan ko sila hanggang sa maging pino 'yong buto nila at hanggang sa lumuha na sila ng dugo sa pagmamakaawa."

"Ate. . ."

"Alam mo, dapat sa mga 'yan hinuhulog sa gitna ng dagat at ipakain sa pating!"

"Ate. . ."

I don't know what to do with this hysterical sister of mine.

"Putangina. Titirisin ko mga 'yon eh! How dare them do this to you!"

"Ate. . . stop. Darating din tayo d'yan, okay?" finally, she stopped. 'Di ko kasi alam kung matatawa ako sa kaniya o sasabayan s'yang mainis.

I cried so loud when she arrived 'bout an hour ago.

We were having some breakfast when someone knocked at the door. "Ako na, ate."

When I opened the door and saw who's behind it, i suddenly felt infatuated. "What are you doing here?" tanong ko saka s'ya tinalikuran. "You didn't receive my text, did you?" mahinang tanong niya.

"And if I did, anong pakialam ko?"

"Carrel.."

"Cut it out, Cyrus! Stop pretending like nothing happened!"

"What are you talking about?" he asked, confusedly. "What am I talking about? I saw you with your ex! She's giving you a damn, hot and pleasurable blow job!" his lips parted after hearing those words from me. "How was it? Was it nice, huh?"

"Sino 'yan, bhe- youuuuuuuu!" but before Aviona could come near him, I stopped her. "Give us some time to talk, ate." she just nodded and went outside. Inambangan pa n'yang susuntukin si Cyrus pero 'di niya tinuloy at pinanlisikan na lang ito ng tingin.

I went back to Cyrus. I stopped myself from the urge to cry. "Leslie is pregnant, isn't she?" I directly asked. "How-"

"How did I know? Fuck you! So, it's true, huh?"

"Carrel.." he's trying to touch me. "Don't go near me! Just answer my question!" I felt a sudden lump on my throat after seeing his tears slowly fell down. "I'm sorry, love. I'm s-sorry.." he kneeled down in front of me. "So, ilang buwan na? Kailan pa?" I cried while asking him.

"Cyrus naman!" I collapsed on the floor with both palm covering my face. All you could hear all over the house was both of us, weeping.

"Cyrus naman! Mahal kita, eh! Minahal kita! Tapos ito- how could you do this to me? Putangina, ang bait talaga sa 'kin ni Lord."

"Hindi ko sinasadya, Carrel. I was just drunk. I didn't know what happened. Nagising na lang ako na magkasama kami. Ni hindi ko nga alam ba't kami magkasama"

"Hindi mo sinasadya?" mahina akong tumawa tsaka tumayo. "Tanginang rason 'yan! Hindi mo sinasadya pero paulit-ulit mong ginawa! Nagpapatawa ka ba?" I sarcastically asked. "A man who really loves his woman won't cheat even if he's drunk!" dagdag ko pa. "Tsaka anong hindi mo alam? Ano 'yon, 'wow magic'? Gising na gising ka sa video, Cyrus!"

"Carrel, hindi ko talaga alam."

I wiped my tears and took out a deep breath, "You hated cheaters, but looks like you are one of them now. A cheater who's afraid to be cheated? Bago 'yon ah, bravo! Tangina ang gulo ng mga rason mo!"

He suddenly stood up. "Carrel, let me explain. Sine-set up lang tayo ni Leslie."

"Bobo ako pero 'di ako tanga, Cyrus!" I exclaimed. "Tangina! You didn't only broke your promises, you also cheated! Ni hindi mo man lang sinasagot ang mga tawag ko? Bakit? Busy kang i-kama si Leslie? Alam mo ba kung sino s'ya, huh? Anak siya ng babaeng umahas sa tatay ko at ang sumira sa pamilya namin!"

"Carrel, hindi ko talaga magagawa sa 'yo 'yon."

"But you did, right? Sabihin mo na lang ang totoo, Cyrus! Stop lying and tell me the whole fvcking truth!" sigaw ko.

"Pero iyon ang totoo, Carrel. Mahal kita at hindi ko kayang gawin sa'yo 'yon. Maniwala ka naman sa 'kin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako napunta sa lugar na 'yon!"

"You choose, me or that baby?" I asked.

"What? You're being selfish, Carrel! I'll request for the DNA through blood just to make sure na nagsasabi talaga ako ng totoo. Wala ka bang tiwala sa 'kin, Love?"

"I have, but you ruined it. I entrusted you my heart, my whole life, Cyrus. Kaya please, tama na? Mahal mo 'ko pero nagawa mo 'yon. Anong klaseng pagmamahal 'yon?" iyak na ako nang iyak. "I know that, kasama ng pagmamahal ang masaktan, pero 'wag naman ganito." hagulgol ko pa.

"Don't make me choose, Carrel. I love you, only you. You are being selfish, 'wag naman ganito."

"I know!" I almost shouted. "You can't choose, Cyrus, because you can't have both. Choose the baby, I will be more happy if you do that."

"Carrel, please. Give me a chance to explain, please. Hear me out." he begged. "Please. Maniwala ka sa'kin. I'll do everything for you. Carrel, hinding-hindi ko magagawa sa 'yo 'yon. P-please maniwala ka sa 'kin, Carrel."

"I saw the pictures, Cyrus. That was enough." I coldly said.

"Carrel."

"You'll do everything for me, right?" I asked while holding back my tears.

"Yes, everything, Carrel. Everything. Just please-"

"Move on." bigla siyang natigilan at kitang-kita ko sa mga mata niya ang pighati. He's still kneeling and begging for me to listen to him, but I have had enough.

I gave him a blank gaze, "Let's break up, Cyrus." saka tumalikod.

Pero panay pa rin ang pagmamakaawa niya sa 'kin. He keeps on calling my name pero hindi ko siya nilingon. I just closed my eyes and let my tears fall down. "And please, don't ever come back. I don't want to see you again. Just leave."

"Carrel, mahal na mahal kita."

"Leave, Cyrus. Kaya ko kung wala ka."