Control | Loki

New Year, New You.

Chapter Fifteen

It was New Year's Eve, and I currently sat at my old window, ever since the bar, Bucky and I haven't talked very much. I was embarrassed and scared of him right now, scared he'd start on the same topic that he did at the bar. Loki had tried to bring himself back to how it was but having him in my room with the thought of what he's seen, makes me feel ill myself, I don't even remember what Bucky saw. I saw Steve walk into the room and he froze seeing me, he probably did Because of my placement, this spot was known for my early days. "Y/N?" He asked and I turned to look at him.

"Yeah?" I asked and he hummed, almost sounding relieved.

"Shouldn't you be getting ready for the party?" He asked and I shook my head, that's when Loki and Thor walked in, the females coming in as well behind them.

"I'm not going," I said and the others stopped looking at me.

"You aren't going to the party?" Steve asked.

"Nope." I popped the P.

"Lady Y/N?"

"Party's recently haven't been my... thing anymore. Disasters." I sighed and they all looked at each other.

"Is this about Bucky Sestra?"

"How can it not be?" I asked.

"Sestra, have you talked to him?" Wanda asked.

"N-No. I'm kind of scared too." I said touching my ear, ever since that night, only like 3 days ago, I felt the acid in his voice as his breath brushed my neck, I'm scared of hearing it again.

"You? Lady Y/N you are scared?" Thor asked and I nodded.

"I don't wanna hear him speak to me the way he did that night." I sighed.

"Sestra avoiding him will only make him feel worse, you feel worse, go talk to him, he is in his room, is he not?" She looked at Steve.

"He has been since that night," Steve said and I turned to them, Loki was facing away from me, I could see his back that was all like he's lost in something.

"You guys won't drop this if I won't?"

"Nope." Wanda popped the P, mocking me, I sighed and nodded getting up and walking to the elevator, as I did I looked at Loki who was looking at his hands, his eyes skimmed up at me, and I tried to smile, but he bit his lip and looked back down, around the others he was so much farther from me than before, I needed to fix that before our first mission, so we weren't so separated, the doors closed, and it went up to his and Steves floor, but before going to his room, I went to Steves and grabbed a few things, I walked back across the hall and knocked.

"Go away, Steve!" I heard Bucky yell and I rolled my eyes, knocking again. "Steve!" He yelled, and I knocked, halfway through the knock it flew open. "Ste-" he froze seeing me. "Y/N?" His before booming voice, merely a whisper now.

"Hey there soldier, can I come in?" I asked and he nodded slowly, he didn't wear a shirt, I could see his scars around his arm that I loved, his flaws made him loving, he wore jeans and I stepped in, he watched me, I held my hand to him and he looked at my hand and slowly took it, he saw me carrying a bag, and just looked back at me as I suddenly dragged him to the bathroom, I jumped up on his counter, next to the plug, and he stared at me. "Turn around," I whispered, he did, his back facing away from me, I pulled him back by the shoulders until his back pressed to the counter where I hugged his shoulders from behind, and my legs came and wrapped around his hips, and held him there firmly. "Stay still..."