Control | Loki

Something I Love.

(Warning: Contains Mature Content)
Chapter Forty-Nine

I lay in Loki's bed quietly listening to the wind, it was no longer cold or sad, the days were sunny and happy, but I felt like I froze on the floor below me. Even if I've been trying very hard not to be genuinely doing that, Loki was trying his best but to be honest I felt like nothing could help. Today I heard a knock and I looked to see Frigga.

"Hi, honey." She whispered as she walked in and I smiled.

"Hi, Frigga," I said and she sat on the bed next to me.

"Loki came to me and spoke of his worries." She said as she pressed her hand to my forehead. "Gosh, you are freezing." She said and I sighed nodding looking at the ceiling. "Is it your powers?" She asked and I nodded.

"It's around times like these I wished I had my power limiters..."

"Hon... It's not good to suppress what you have." I looked at her. "You must feel." She said and I sighed.

"Feeling hurts. Everything about this does..."

"Then do something you love. What do you love?" She asked and I thought.

"Read... I used to read every day." I said and she smiled.

"Up! I will dress you." She pulled me up and grabbed a beautiful dress and when I dressed she did my hair. She pulled me out of my room and as we sped walked I saw Loki in the courtyard with Thor, He saw me and froze as His mother and I rushed past the opening. He looked happy to see me up but also curious. She pulled me into a room, the library I was in briefly with her.

"Mum I can't read these, they're in Asgardian," I said and she sat me down.

"Stay here." She said and I smiled as she ran out of the room. I couldn't help but laugh despite my current wave of melancholy thoughts. She came back in with a bowl and she stilled me with a wave of a hand, she grabbed the bowl tilted my head up and sprinkled over my eyes, it was like the finest of glitter but it disappeared into my skin, I felt a sting in my nose and I sneezed into my elbow hard. She chuckled at me. I looked at her confused.

"What did you do-" She turned my head by my chin to look at the shelf and saw I could... I could read it! Not just one like last time, all of them! I smiled looking at her. "Is it permanent?" I asked and she nodded.

"Yes, should be at least. You want to be left alone to read?" She asked and I nodded smiling.

"Thank you, Mom," I whispered before I went through the books and found some I wanted to read. I was a good reader, pretty fast when interested. I finished the first book pretty fast but it was a thinner one. Then I stumbled onto the mate one again and I remembered I never got to finish it. I hummed and picked it up I lay on the couch in the room on my stomach reading. I decided to look for something specific and found a page on feelings.

I read the way it described feeling the other's feelings but in a sense that it's like an aura they carry and then I felt bad... Was I bringing Loki's vibe down..? I sighed and flipped the page to read more about what it was like, I read more and more about love and how it would feel like. Of course, some of it seemed exaggerated and even just not true but some were so Loki and I, it was shocking. I started realizing he was all I needed. I had my siblings anyway, Thor- but my heart stung suddenly. I thought of Tony- a man who I saw as a father figure... He was... Important to me. It doesn't matter anymore. What about Bruce? I sighed. I closed the book and sighed again, I've been sighing a lot recently. I felt hands run up my legs and I giggled softly looking back and seeing Loki moving to straddle my legs.