Just Listen

Ghost

I miss Dylan. A lot. Partially the reason I cant talk to him or he won't talk to me is because we all got suspended for instigating a bullying. I didn't bully anyone oh hell no. Its too complicated to discuss. Anyways

I don't know if he wants to be with me anymore. I guess maybe I shouldn't be too worried about him? Maybe I should?

I just don't want to loose him again. There's so much going on between our relationship and I don't know what to decide.. I don't want to break up with him, I love him too much to do that and I'd feel guilty. I don't know if he wants to break up with me, many manyyyyyyyy people come up to me and tell me the following:
-"Dylan doesn't like you"

-"He's just faking it"

-"He's only dating you because he feels bad for you"

-"He likes another girl"

-"He's going to break up with you"

-"He thinks your annoying, the only reason he's dating you is so you'll shut up about him"

....and more but that's good enough. I've never confronted him about it, maybe once or twice but I don't bother him about it. I don't know who to believe, he'd think it's only right I believe him since I'm dating him but.... if over 5 people tell me the same thing..... there's a little competition.

I want to be the girl he wants, the ONLY girl he wants. I want him to love me like no one else. I'd do anything to make him happy. I just want him to love me. That's the only thing I need from him, his love. I don't need any necklaces or gifts, just the love... just the love.

His birthday is tomorrow, March 6th. Should I get him something? What do I get him? Did he get me anything, no. After his birthday, 10 days later is our anniversary, 2 months it would be. We started dating January 16, 2015 at exactly 6:43 pm. Anyways, what do I get him? What do boys like? Games, Sex, and Girls. Well:

Games- he already as enough and I don't know what game he wants

Sex- ehh..... I don't think I want to give it up to him just yet, maybe a French kissing will do

Girls- he's already dating me, can't get any better than that :)

So now you see: my love life is not at all calm. Almost everyone knows we're dating, half of the people who know think we're cute, the other half tries to break us up. Who to go to: I DONT KNOW! Butttt, enough for now, I've got a birthday to plan.