Just Listen

Unexpected Romance

~Handwritten in my journal~

Dylan is so crazy. This boy hugged me and I fell into the chair. Then, when I was sharpening pencils, he put his arms around me. I'm like his pillow. I really do love Dylan though. I don't think it would be good if we went out just yet for many reasons that are way too detailed. If I was to call dylan something it would be my fake boyfriend, my ROD. I would hells yea love to date me again but I don't want to ruin our friendship if we break up.

Dylan is one of the most important people in my life. He's my only true love. I love the way he makes me feel special, girly I know, but I can't help it. Even when he's mad at me, he never lets me go. Never never never. Another thing; he's irreplaceable. One of a kind, I can't find anyone like him. Crazy I know.

To be honest, dylan brings out a darker side of me. Not the bad bad side, but like the sass, bad side. I don't even know why.

But I still feel a sense of comfort with him. He's a possible person I want to get with someday, not no of course I'm barely even 14. Sometimes I get a nasty thought that Dylan's gonna forget about me and leave me to rot by myself, then another side gets angry for thinking that and thinks that Dylan will never leave my side, no matter what. The only thing I know now is that we love each other as really really close friends, and that's better than anything at this point.

I care about him a lot. I wonder how long I can write about him. Well for starters I love him. One thing about him is that he doesn't just like me for what I look like. He also likes me because he said I amuse him. You know how much that means to me?? I didn't think Dylan and I would have the relationship that we do now. How would I know I'd fall in an endless love with him.

Everything I've done with Dylan, I will never regret a thing. I would never regret meeting him on that Friday. He's the love of my life. I have my love to him.

I never cried over someone like I did over him. Yes on occasions, I miss dating him but I love him as my older brother as equally wayyyyy too much.

~3-4 hours later~

Yaaaayyy, I finally found a charger for this damned phone at 1%. You can presume who I texted first: Dylan!! Sometimes when him and I are texting it sounds like we're dating when we're really not. I have a bad urge to kiss him but I'm scared he won't like me anymore. I hope I can figure this out by Monday. Ttyl