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IM GONNA SWITCH IT UP A LIL AND MAKE THIS CHAPTER BILLIES POV BC I WANNA TRY IT OUT OKAY BYE

BILLIES POV:

lately i haven't been feeling myself. i know i always say that i don't really pay attention to hate comments or anyone that gives me hate but some of it is hard to avoid.

y/n is at work right now. she should be home in about an hour. i decided to post something on instagram because 1. i haven't posted in a while. 2. i know my fans will love it. they go crazy.

i post a picture and it immediately blows up with likes. ever since i dyed my hair blonde, my posts have been blowing up more than usual.

i read some of the comments under the post. i keep scrolling until i see some of the negative comments. that was a bad idea.

(i made these users up idk if they actually exist)

billie.x.o: shes so fineee

billiesxanny: on my knees

billies_ocean_eyes: you're so fucking hottt

user1603482051: why do you even post you're so ugly

billieeilishis_ugly: shouldn't have dyed you're hair it looks horrible

user123456709: you should stick to baggy clothes so we don't have to see your ugly ass body

a tear falls down my face, onto the phone screen. i don't even hear the front door open, when y/n steps into the room.

"hi, angel." y/n smiles but soon frowns. she walks over to me, sitting down next to me on the bed.

"what's wrong? what happened, baby?" i show her my phone and she looks at it, furrowing her eyebrows. she shakes her head and pulls me into her.

"my love, you know that's not true. none of that is true at all." by now i'm full on sobbing into her chest. y/n hands rubbing up and down my back.

"but it is. my body is so horrible. why are you even with me. you can do so much better." i say through sobs.

"angel, why would you say that about yourself. you're so so beautiful. inside and out. everything about you is beautiful. i'm with you because you are you." y/n says softly.

"they're right tho. i should just stick to baggy clothes. i look better with them on anyway." i try calming down but it doesn't work. y/n reaches her hand out and wipes my tears with her thumbs.

"they aren't right, baby. no where near. i like when you show off your body. i finally get to see my baby confident in what she wears. all i ever want is for you to feel confident, love. i don't want you to listen to those people. they mean nothing, okay?" i nod and take deep breathes.

"good job, baby. deep breathes like i always tell you."she says, stroking my hair. i love this girl so much. she always knows what to say.

i calm down, holding y/n close to me. i'm sitting on her lap. my face in her neck with my arms and legs wrapped around her.

"i never want you to listen to those people. no matter how much you think they're right, they're not." i nod and kiss her neck. she giggles and pulls away. she kisses my lips softly.

"wanna watch the office, baby?" i smile and nod. she lays down and brings me with her. i lay my head on her chest, her hand under my shirt rubbing my back up and down.

y/n puts on my favorite episode of the office. she always knows how to make me feel better. that's why i love her.

i laugh at some parts of it and so does y/n. i start feeling tired and i yawn. y/n kisses my forehead.

"go to sleep, baby. i'll be here when you wake up." and just like that i'm fast asleep.

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THIS IS DIFFERENT IDK IF I LIKE IT OR NOT

CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW HOT SHE LOOKS IN THAT PICTURE THO DAMNNN

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