daddy; B.E. imagines

holding in

BROO I CANT EVEN WATCH THE DISNEY PLUS THING BC I DONT HAVE IT ☹️

Y/N'S POV

"why did they even hire you? you're just a clueless child!"

i felt my cheeks flush and anger fill my chest at my coworker's words, i hadn't even been the one to make the mistake and yet i was here, being yelled at in front of everyone in the office. i wanted to run away and cry, but it would be pointless. instead, i bottled up my emotions and shook my head before walking back to my desk. i didn't want to deal with my emotions or seem weak in front of anyone, especially when i knew word would get back to my girlfriend. there wasn't a single thing that happened in the office that billie didn't find out about and i feared she would view me as weak for showing my emotions at work.

when five o'clock rolled around, i was the first one out of the office. i wanted to be anywhere but there at the moment, a hot shower and a glass of wine was calling my name. i made my way to the quiet parking garage, standing alone as i waited for billie to walk out of the elevator. this was your normal routine that the two of us had picked up when we started dating, we both had always appreciated having stability in our lives.

billie didn't say anything to me when she approached, only nodding her head in the direction of her car. i followed silently, knowing my girlfriend wasn't one for small talk after work. it didn't matter to me, i loved simply being in her presence. billie remained silent the entire car ride and i began to wonder if she had heard about jessica snapping at me or if she was just choosing not to bring it up.

it wasn't until the two of us had made it through the front door of our apartment that billie finally said something to me.

"are you okay?" her voice was the softest i had ever heard it and i felt my chest tighten at the concern on her face.

however, i didn't want her to know how much the incident had affected me, i was sure that if i bottled it up without talking about it, it would go away and i could forget it even occurred.

"i'm fine." i shook my head.

"i just want a hot shower and a glass of wine."

when i turned to make my way to the bedroom, billie grabbed my wrist to stop me. my heart raced as i felt her fingers wrapping around my skin, i knew that she wasn't going to let me go until i talked about my feelings. i had never been one to bottle my emotions until i had met her and she was aware of this.

she waited for me to meet her eyes before speaking.

"holding everything in doesn't help, you know." i let out a laugh and shook my head at her.

"that's hilarious coming from you, billie. you're the queen of bottling your emotions. sometimes i still wonder if you even like me because you never talk about your feelings."

billie's face fell at my words and i could see her hand twitching around my wrist. i hadn't meant to affect her that much, but i couldn't stop myself from voicing my thoughts.

"i do like you, don't be ridiculous." she chastised as she narrowed her eyes at me.

"i try to show you how much i love you all the time, you know i'm not good at talking about my emotions."

"i know, baby, i'm sorry." i rushed to apologize. i was silent for a moment before realizing what she had said.

"you love me?"

a slight blush covered billie's cheeks and she smiled at me, a sight i would never get tired of seeing.

"of course i do." she whispered.

"how could i not?"

i beamed back at her, completely forgetting why i was upset in the first place. hearing that billie loved me replaced every negative feeling i had inside of me. i had been waiting for the right moment to say those three words, fearing that i would be left hanging when i finally did. i never would have expected that billie would be the first to admit that she loved me.

"i love you." i breathed, dropping my tense shoulders.

billie looked over my face with a satisfied smile and nodded at me.

"now, i love you enough to know when you're bothered, so please tell me what you're feeling. i don't want you to think that you have to keep your emotions to yourself just because i do. that's not who you are."

biting my lip, i hesitated before deciding to open up to billie. i gestured for her to move to the couch in the living room because i knew it was going to be a long conversation. i realized that even if neither of us had said it out loud until this moment we both used small gestures to show our love and dedication to the other. for billie, this meant spending time with me while i watched reality shows that she absolutely dreaded or buying me flowers just to see me smile.

"it's not like i'm being bullied." i started once i settled down on the opposite end of the couch, body turned so i was facing billie.

"there are just a few people at work that really don't like me and they don't keep it a secret."

"who?" i shook my head.

"it doesn't matter."

"fine."

even though billie seemed to drop it, i knew that wasn't the case. she would find out on her own if i wasn't willing to tell her, she would take a trip down to my floor of the building and observe the environment if she had to. she was determined to do something about the situation, even if i wasn't willing to ask her to.

billie listened intently as i recounted my experiences at work, silently plotting how she would deal with anyone that dared to even look at me wrong. she loved me and she was determined to use whatever power she had to make sure that i was respected in the workplace. i was hers and nobody was allowed to mess with me, she couldn't handle the fact that i was upset for any reason.

by the time i had finished with the explanation of what had happened earlier with jessica, i had my knees pulled to my chest and i struggled to maintain eye contact with billie. i hated being vulnerable in front of her, even if she reassured me that she didn't mind it. there was something that just felt wrong when i did, she was so elegant and well put together and it just made me seem inferior to her.

i saw billie's hand reach out toward me and i hesitantly took it into my own, slowly relaxing as i felt her touch. one small tug left me surprised and moving toward the woman as she opened her arms and gestured for me to sit in her lap. i was careful as i settled, fearing that i would somehow hurt the woman with my actions. once i was settled in place, billie began to gently rub my back and smiled when i hummed against her chest.

"you are incredible and you have every right to be exactly where you are." billie expressed, continuing to rub my back.

"you are a brilliant woman and you deserve your job just as much as anyone else there, if not more. don't let them get to you, beautiful girl."

i took a deep breath as i felt tears pooling in my eyes. the sensation of billie rubbing my back paired with the gentle words she was giving me was enough to break through the walls i had recently built up. i bit my lip as the first tear began to fall and i silently hoped it wouldn't ruin my girlfriend's hoodie. there was no way i would let myself be the reason one of her favorite hoodies was stained, especially not because i was crying in her lap.

billie brushed my hair back and pressed a soft kiss to the top of my head, whispering gently in my ear as she continued to praise me. this continued until i was finally able to calm myself down and return to a normal breathing pace. when she felt me relax against her body, she slipped her hand underneath the back of my shirt and began to lightly scratch her nails against my back.

i hummed in appreciation and lifted my head to meet her eyes.

"you mean the world to me." i whispered.

"i don't know what i would do without you, baby." billie responded, smiling softly.

"you've made me soft."

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