Blood to Love | 3rd year

42- Second Chance: Denied

It was April. The first of April to be quite exact.

I awoke in my dorm with Pansy scurrying around the room and getting dressed for classes on the breezy spring morning.

Over the weeks that passed, I've been growing closer to Draco, and drifting my thoughts from George all together.

I wasn't over George but the feelings are slowly becoming less painful the more I saw him. I stopped talking to Snape after two weeks because it felt unnecessary to speak to a professor about my love life after I began feeling content about it. Draco had — like expected — become drastically more flirty to the point that I was practically obligated to reply back with witty remarks as well.

My feelings are extremely complicated. I wasn't not over George completely but I was close. I didn't feel completely into Draco but I was also close. Constant thoughts run through my head about dropping everything and getting with Draco. On the other hand, I still got cravings to be with George and I still randomly cried over him at night on some occasions.

Love is much too complicated for my small brain to comprehend.

I also failed to mention that Sirius Black apparently came back once more in February. Although — and unfortunately — only the Gryffindors got to witness it.

The story went a little like this: Sirius Black entered Hogwarts. Neville Longbottom was being extremely thick in the head and he left the common room passwords lying around. Of course, Sirius Black found the passwords and entered Ron and Harry's dormitory. Everyone thought it was in Ron's imagination and rumors were spread like wildfire. There are many flaws in the story and holes to be filled but most people ultimately think Sirius was there to kill Harry but once Ron screamed, he fled the scene rapidly.

Harry and Hermione had become closer to me as well and they fortunately didn't side with George. However, Ron has been and absolute git ever since the breakup. Ginny has comforted me, the twins have ignored me, and Pansy and Blaise have been busy in the dorms.

After a morning of thinking, I stood up from my bed, walked to the bathroom and began getting ready.

Pansy and Blaise had been together more often ever since they expressed their love for one another, meaning Draco and I have been staying in my dorm a lot but there were also some days where we would stay in our own dorms. Daphne, on the other hand, had practically gone missing.

I finished up in the bathroom and changed into my robes. Pansy sat on her vanity chair and waited for me to follow her out of the door for breakfast.

"I'm going to sit with Harry and Hermione today," I said.

She nodded and I slowly walked over to the Gryffindor table, getting odd glances the entire time.

This would be the first time sitting with them ever since George and I broke up. Although, Harry and Hermione have been privately hanging out with me in the common room and our dorms.

Harry raised his eyebrows but eagerly nodded once he saw my hesitation about sitting with them.

I sat in between him and Hermione. Ron was next to Harry and the twins across from them.

"How are you guys?" I asked while avoiding eye contact with George.

"We're good," Harry said awkwardly as Ron looked annoyed.

"I've actually been really great. I've just reread Hogwarts: A History and realized that apparition is impossible within Hogwarts," Hermione said as if we were in a normal conversation.

"When do we learn to apparate?" I questioned.

"Sixth year," George muttered.

I looked at him for the first time in awhile and saw sadness in his eyes, as if the break up just recently hit him, however, I didn't feel much sympathy for him.