In this life you'll meet people in the most unexpected ways that will change your life and force you confront your past.
Start Date: April 25, 2021
End Date: May 25, 2021
The past 4 days have been incredibly dull I don't even remember much of it, the days have begun to blur into one. Apart from crying and laying in Giovanni's bed, I don't do much, Alex's taken over, feeding and taking care of Junior. I barely have an appetite, and when I do eat my anxiousness makes me throw up. Sandro is extremely broken up too, I stayed on the phone with him the other day crying as he blamed himself, it shattered my heart.
We got a call yesterday from Tony that gave me a little bit of hope, Gio's earpiece was found outside of the house meaning there was a chance he got out before the explosion. Though the chances are slim he could've survived it I chose not to get my hopes up at all. It's now the day before my birthday depressing me even more.
I get out of bed since I have a couple of things I actually need to do today. I pull out my laptop logging into my old email. I quickly type up the email I promised I'd send at least once a year, I schedule it to send at 12 then close my laptop. I grab the burner phone and go onto all my old socials from before I left Canada. I see a couple of messages from old "friends" asking where I've been and if I'm ok. Rolling my eyes I ignore some and leave others on seen.
After forcing myself to make and eat some blueberry waffles, I braid my hair into straight back cornrows and head to the gym. I run on the treadmill for hours until I almost fall off then, hop into the shower. By now it's already 6 pm, I decided to go downstairs to Alex and hang out since I've been isolating for a while. I bake some chicken and make a salad for us to eat for dinner then we watch Netflix,
"Are you going to do anything for your birthday," Alex asks.
"No, I don't celebrate my birthday, I definitely won't this year," I say. We continue watching Superstore, Alex occasionally laughing at some of the scenes but I can't find it in me to do the same. Around 11:30 I take some medication for my headache then tell Alex I'm going to shower again and head to sleep.
After showering, washing my face, and brushing my teeth I climb into bed. I call Giovanni's phone just to hear his voice say "You've reached Giovanni leave a message and don't call back".
I decided today I'll leave a message, "Hey Giovanni it's me Niyah, or you-your princess please come back, I won't be mad at you anymore I swear just please don't do this please," I say my voice cracking "Please," I whisper one last time before hanging up. I look at the time on my phone to see it's now 12 am.
"Happy Birthday to me," I say before closing my eyes and falling into a dreamless sleep.
(Next Morning)
I feel myself wake up but I don't bother to open my eyes, I don't want to, it's my birthday and I have nothing to celebrate. My body feels warmer than usual I groan realizing I'm probably coming down with something.
I open my eyes becoming more aware of my surrounding. The clock in front of me reads 10 am, I woke up later than usual. I sit up after a while dragging myself to the bathroom to shower. I shower and slip on some biker shorts and a huge 4XL T-shirt. I decide I'll go for a drive later to clear my head. After grabbing the glass I used to drink water last night, and my phone, seeing no new messages or calls I start heading downstairs.
As I approach the end of the stairs I hear voices and I assume it's the TV until I hear his voice. Then it goes silent again, I close my eyes sighing, I'm starting to lose it I say to myself. I open my eyes again and what I see causes me to drop my glass making it shatter into a million pieces.
I'm scared to move thinking it's my imagination,
"Happy Birthday princess," he says flashing his mind-blowing smile and that's enough to confirm he's really there. Ignoring the glass I race towards his open arms jumping into them.
I wrap my legs around his waist and hug him impossibly tight, afraid he'll disappear, my body shakes as I sob into his shoulder. He rubs my back whispering in my ear that it's all ok now.
After I calm down I try sliding down but he holds me tighter and walks into the living room with me in his arms. I look up as we walk in Alex and another guy who I'm guessing is Theo look at me smiling, I pull away from Giovanni and go hug Tony for a second before hugging Sandro and squeezing him tightly.
I go back to Giovanni he pulls me onto his lap and I lay my legs on the couch rest my head on his chest. I'm still in a state of shock. So many emotions were swimming around my mind. I finally notice there are a couple of scratches and cuts littering Giovanni's arms and face.
"So what happened, after the bomb went off where'd you go?" Alex asks her brother.
"Well I was extremely close to the explosion, even though I stumbled a couple of steps away the explosion knocked me off my feet and I fell down and got knocked out. The police eventually came because of the explosion so Sandro and the men had to drive off. Since it was dark I was able to avoid being seen by the police and walked for hours until I reached the main road. I slept in a motel so I could shower and clean my wounds until morning. When I got up I bought a change of a hoodie, a hat, and some glasses to hid my face. I went into the city to find some of my partners but while in a cafe I heard that people had announced me dead. I decided it was best to keep a low profile for now. It wasn't until yesterday that I made my way back to Sandro, Tony, and Theo so we could leave the country." he finishes explaining
"So everyone still thinks you're dead?" I ask looking up at him. He nods pressing his head into my neck.
"Why don't you announce you're alive?" I ask
"Well because everyone thinks I'm dead now I can see who else has been plotting against me," he mumbles and I nod.
"So should I cook breakfast?" I say about to stand,
"Isn't it your birthday, who cooks for people on their birthday," Tony says laughing while everyone agrees with him.
"Ok, so IHop?" I ask
"Nah I know a better place," Sandro says. We all go to get dressed. Me and Giovanni climb up to his room and he refuses to let go of me for even a second. When we get upstairs I try to go grab my clothes from my bag but he won't let go,
"I thought I would never see you again," he mumbles sadly.
"At least you knew you were alive. I thought I lost you. How would you feel if I disappeared off the Earth for 5 days," I say looking up at him.
"I don't even want to imagine that," he says tightening his hold on me
I reach up grabbing his face and making him look into my eyes.
"Listen I'm not going anywhere ok and neither are you, we're together now," I say. He smiles nodding. I get dressed in a sleeveless bodycon dress with a cropped distressed jeans jacket. I put on a simple gold chain with my name on it and some cute sandals since I painted my toes last week.
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Giovanni decides to match me wearing a black fitted T-shirt, Black jeans and a jeans jacket.
"You look, beautiful baby," he says taking my hand and leading us downstairs. Me and Giovanni climb in his Tesla and the rest climb in another car. We drive off heading to brunch.
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