Man in Black

25.Hurt.

Duncan's pov.

Everything inside of me hurt as the girl I adored the most was scared even at thought of me. I have seen so many people scared, begging for their life I would never even feel a thing but seeing the fear in her eyes and me being the reason for it broke my heart. I would never hurt her not even in my wildest dreams I would gladly die than hurt her. The last thing I wanted was her to be afraid of me. I tried to be her solace but turned out to be the monster she feared.

I knew I should have told her before but I was scared she would react the way she reacted now and I wouldn't be able to be with her even for a little time. Every day I spent with her made me believe that there is still hope in this spiteful world. With her around, I no more felt like the monster I am, for once even my stone-cold heart started beating.

I started to feel whole again. She started trusting me, she started talking to me and I ruined it. Now it's all gone, she did not want me around her, I will stay away watching and protecting her from afar. The memories I have with her are enough to keep me alive.

Her brown eyes stared into mine but I couldn't look at it, it was filled with fear. My heart trembled at the sight of it.

I know I don't deserve it but for once I wanted to be loved was it too much to ask?.

" Good night! Baby girl " I said walking away protecting her from me. I walked past the door closing it behind me I couldn't take it anymore I placed my hands over the bonnet of my car balancing myself. I punched multiple times, trying to calm the urge of going back in, stopping myself from holding her in my arms.

I yanked my hair in annoyance sliding down sitting on the dry grass my back against the car. She's all I want, all I need my baby girl. How could I live without her? My breathing started increasing I was having a panic attack at the thought of her not being with me. Her mere presence around me kept me calm and insane. Her smile made my cold heart race again.

But I cannot be selfish I had to let her go if that's what she wants.

I sat in the car glancing at the door one last time hoping maybe she would come out. But I knew what the result would be I started the car going far away from her.

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2 weeks later.

I leaned against my office table my hand in my pocket. My feet tapping the floor.

“ Boss,” someone said snapping their fingers getting me out of my thoughts. I looked up to see Ray standing there with a concerned expression.

“ how long have you been here?” I asked.

“ Long enough to know you are disturbed,” he said placing his hands in his pockets.

“ Hmm,” I said checking my phone. Seeing a message from Jessica. Before I could open it

Dominique walked in with Matthew. His face pale, hands shaking, beads of sweat formed on his forehead. “ what happened?” I asked anxiously he was the one with other men who are looking over Alicia for me.

“ bo...boss ”he stuttered speaking.

“ what the fuck is wrong?” I yelled moving closer to him he backed up scared. I was clenching and unclenching my fist not being able to handle the suspense.

“ Alicia met with an accident ” he mumbled. My heart skipped a beat and started pumping faster. My throat went completely dry. I calmed myself.
walking towards him holding him by his neck I backed him into the wall.

“ what are you saying? ” I growled as I chocked him.

“ I...am...sorry boss.” 
I shouldn't have trusted them I should have done it myself, what should I do now? is she hurt? I should have protected her? Huh, she so fragile. That's enough I cannot be away from her. I get it she doesn't want me, but right now her safety is important.