All Because of This (a.i. m.c.)

All Because of What I Never Said (Ashton's POV)

Thanks for apologizing for me Brie. But hey, I'm here now!

This chapter will not be an email, nor will it be a skype call. It will more of a "normal chapter" if you wish. So let's get started, yeah?

//Linn

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Triggers: mention of suicide

~Ashton~

"Hey Luke, throw some chocolate this way, would you?"

A bar of chocolate came flying through the air and I caught it with one hand whilst grinning down at my friend.

"There you go mate", Luke mumbled and tried to get himself a more comfortable position on the floor while scrolling through his tumblr feed.

I laughed at his awkward position and shook my head. "You know", I told him, "there's place up here if you'd like." I gestured towards my perfectly comfortable bed that I was lying on, but Luke just shook his head.

"Nah, I'm good. I like this carpet. It's nice." He stroke my fluffy blue carpet with one hand, still not taking his eyes off his laptop.

I rolled my eyes. "Weirdo."

"Not just any weirdo though, I'm your weirdo."

"I thought you were Calum's weirdo?"

"Shut up."

I gigled and rolled over on my side so I could get a better look at him. "Are you denying your undying love for Mr Hood?"

Luke grabbed a chocolate bar from the bag on the floor and eyed it thoughtfully. "I would throw this at you", he said, "but you're really not worth waisting such fine chocolate."

I stared at him with wide eyes and dramatically placed a hand on my chest. "I'm offended."

Luke looked up at me and raised an eyebrow. "And it would have been better if I threw it?" he asked.

"Ehm… I mean… Well I guess not."

"Told ya. Now shut up and eat your chocolate."

And I did. We both did.

Luke kept scrolling through his tumblr feed and I was checking twitter when a notification suddenly popped up at the top of my phone screen:

New email from: cliff_fuckoff_ord@gmail.com

My heart did a little jump in my chest and I eagerly clicked on the notification, waiting for the email to load. I knew that Michael was going through a rough time at the moment, but every time I got an email from him I started smiling like a mad man. He did that to me. He made me happy.

The email loaded and i started to read it with a smile on my face, but that smile that quickly dropped as I got further into the email. He was… Michael was…

"No no no", I started mumbling under my breath. This wasn't happening. This couldn't be happening.

I took a deep breath and felt the familiar stinging behind my eyelids as I read the last few words.

Goodbye Ashton. Goodbye.

"No!"

I threw my phone away from me and faintly heard it slam into the wall before I broke down into a series of sobs.

"Ashton? Hey, Ash, what happened?"

I felt the bed dip down beside me and Luke's warm hand on my shoulder.