All Because of This (a.i. m.c.)

all because of surprises

Hahahahaha. That Linn kid will be the death of me. Hahahahaha.

~Brie

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Triggers: mentions self harm

To: ashestoashes@gmail.com

From: cliff_fuckoff_ord@gmail.com

hey ash.

naturally high? that sounds like the life. i wish. although cal does call me drunk a lot. i don't actually drink alcohol, you have to be 21 for some dumb reason here, but i do get drunk off of emotions. like back when i was in love with this... someone.

don't worry, they're no longer in the picture.

i'm sorry ash, but i kinda live off that pain. it works for longer then a moment, more soothing than anything i know. cal knows too, [well, he knows a little] and he tries to help, but he has his own life. he is his own person, and definitely not my keeper. no one is but me. and now probably you.

you are just full of surprises aren't you. i never would have guessed that you've done what i am ashamed of doing. i never would have guessed that your puns are as bad as mine. come on ash, that's a fucking achievement. i have an awful sense of humor.

also, your friend and calum's pen pal have the same full name, lucas. i've seen cal scribble it everywhere. it kind of makes me want to puke they're so sappy. cal said that he said that he was also gay and calum was completely his type. see, cal is pansexual but he always leaned more towards the guys. i wonder if they'll actually get together.

mikey? i don't know. i've always shot down the people who tried to call me that. it makes me sound better than i am. cute even, which you know i am not at all. i think michael is just fine, but if you really want, call me mikey. it's not like i can stop you.

cheeky bum sex?! [i had to steal an exclamation point for that one. be excited.] ash, i get you're 17 and probably horny as hell, but remember that i am 15 and young and innocent- who the hell am i kidding. and i don't know why, but you strike me as a top. c;

no, i am not gay. i am bisexual. so you can still fuck me, i guess. c;

you're still cooler than me. stop denying it. and trust me, i have worse in my closet...

will i ever tell you? probably not. you'll have to get your ass to america to see.

was that a kiss at the end of your name? my platonic pal, please tell me exactly what you meant by that. i'm dying to know.

shit. my room is a mess and my mom is home in 2 days. looks like i'm signing off for the night. sleep tight ashton.

michael xx

p.s. you're making me blush. stop that.