Lack Of Deceit {Completed}

Chapter 23

Jovan
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"Iva, open the got damn door!" I yelled through the door. I'd been banging on the door for the last 20 minutes.

She was acting childish. If she was mad, she could talk about it. She was irritating me and I was trying to be patient with her.

I had made her upset and I already apologized and shit. I ran into my ex that I was with for 5 years. Maybe I was wrong for taking her number but I was just trying to be friendly. I'd never cheat on Iva.

Diane was gorgeous but she could not compare to Iva. Iva was everything I ever needed in a woman.

I heard the shower turn on and I sighed, feeling defeated. I sat against the wall next to the door. I took out my phone and went straight to my messages. I looked at me and Iva's thread.

Me: Baby, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you upset. You're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen besides my mother. You've made my life way more better. You're beautiful inside and out. You are a an amazing mother and my future wife. My future baby mama. No one in the past, present or future will ever compete. I promise to never lie to you ever again. Please open the door so I can talk to you.

I typed and sent to her. I sat there, waiting for her and in about of 5 minutes the shower turned off. I started counting the wood tiles on the floor.

10 more minutes passed and she finally opened the door. She was in one of my t-shirts and she looked good in it.

"Future baby mama?" She had her hand on her hip.

"Yes ma'am." I laughed and got up off the floor. "Please talk to a nigga."

"It's nothing anymore." She sighed, turning around and climbing on my bed. I took off all my clothes except my boxers and put on a wife beater.

"Nah, it's something. You said it was something and I want you to talk to me." I turned her on her back and I climbed on top of her.

"I just feel like I'm gonna get played. I feel like I'm gonna be stupid and get heartbroken. When I could've been left alone." She said seriously. After all this, and she still believed that.

"I don't know how many times I have to tell you this. I'm not gonna fuck with you. This is for real. I'm for real. I'm not finna break your heart or nun of yours." I pecked her lips. "Aight?"

"Yeah, I guess." She heavily sighed. Being so fucking extra.

"Say it with some damn enthusiasm."

"Yes, babe!" She giggled as I tickled her. She tried to fight me off and I finally let her go.

"I love you, Iva." I blurted out, staring deep into her eyes. I didn't mean to say it but I really did love her. If this wasn't love then I don't know what the fuck love was. She was the only one I ever wanted to be around. Her and her family. I wanted to be apart of her life and her heart meant everything to me.

I couldn't lose her.

"Jovan, I-" she started but I stopped her.

"You don't have to say it back. I just wanted- I needed to let you know because I mean it.''

She laid on my chest and went to sleep.

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Ivena
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The next day.

I woke up to just me being in this big ass bed. I dragged myself out the bed and walked downstairs to see Jovan making breakfast.

"Good morning." I smiled and sat on one of his bar stools.

"Good morning." He walked over to kiss me. I continued to watch him make us waffles and turkey bacon.

"So, how long did you and Diane date?" I asked him and he chuckled. I was just curious.

"Why we still on this?" He asked and I shrugged.
"5 years." He answered.

"Wow. Why'd you guys break up?"

"She was emotionally unavailable and wanted to be in a polyamorous relationship. I told her I couldn't do that and we broke up. But, we were on good terms." He said nonchalanty.

"Oh." Was all I said. I didn't really care I was just curious about her. She looked perfect to me so I didn't understand why they'd ever break up.

Especially to end up being with me.

That made me think about what he had said to me last night. It didn't scare me at all. I just wasn't sure if I wanted to say it back. Those words meant a lot to me and I wasn't gonna throw it around. He said that he meant it and I wanted to make sure I meant it.

Jovan meant a lot to me and I could see myself with her for a long period of time. He loved me and and Amina. He loved my family and my flaws. He reassured my insecurities and made me feel like the only woman in the world.

For the most part.

"Um, about what you said last night..." I trailed off, looking down.

"Iva, I told you, you don't have to say it back. Whenever you're ready."

"What if I don't say it back?"

"You will." He smirked, making me smile. "You don't have work today, right?"

"Nah, I just have to get Mini from my mom's." I said as he placed a plate with waffles on it in front of me.

"Okay. You want me to come with you or you wanna go by yourself? I know we've been spending a lot of time together.

"Come with me. I like spending time with you."

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"Mama!" I yelled through the house as I looked for her. I saw her watching Mini play outside. I opened the sliding glass door and she turned her head at me.

"Hey Jovan!" She got all excited.

"Hey Mama." I stood in front of Jovan, trying to block him.

"Girl, move. Ain't nobody tryna see you. How's my favorite son in law doing?"

I loved my mom. But, she could be extra sometimes. She never said anything like this to Don, though. She never reffered to him as her 'son in law'.

She didn't hate him, she just never said things like that. They had a respectful relationship but never had real conversations or anything. Why was she doing it now?

Making me uncomfortable and shit.

"I'm doing good. How's life treating you, Ms. Violet?" He said, being all polite.

"I'm just living life. Hanging out with my grandbaby. I wouldn't mind having another one." She smiled and I shook my head.

"Let's go." I picked up Amina and kissed my mom's forehead. "Love you, Mama."

I wasn't even sure if I wanted more children. Everyone was assuming I was willing to let a baby grow in my womb.

My first pregnancy wasn't easy either.

"Mini, we have a surprise for you." I said with enthusiasm. Even though I was annoyed right now, I wanted to have fun with my baby.

"Mommy, what is it?" She wiggled in my arms.

"We're going to the P-A-R-K." Jovan spelled out, thinking she wouldn't get it. She sat there for a moment and thought about it.

"We're going to the park!" She finally said and we looked at her with a surprised look on our faces. I didn't teach her how to spell anything except for her name.

She was just a prodigy.