Lack Of Deceit {Completed}

Chapter 40

Jovan
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"Yo, Prince, what's up?" I spoke into the phone as I got ready to leave the house.

"Not much, bro. Thyri and I have extra tickets to a concert and we wondered if you and your girl wanted to go this weekend."

Little do they know.

"Thanks, man. We're actually busy this weekend, so  maybe next time." I walked out the door and to my car.

"Aight, bro. It was nice talking to you. If you ever need anything let me know."

"Thanks, bro." I then hung up and cut the engine on. I was going to see Iva and I'm not even gonna lie, I'm nervous as hell. I'm hoping she doesn't kick me out or some shit.

I really just need to know where her head is at. Of she even still fells a way about me.

I can't just up and leave.

I still feel bad for everything that happened so even if she is really done with me, I still want to apologize.

This is our closure.

Pulling up to the apartment, I get out and walked up the stairs quicker than expected. I could feel my heart humping and tried to calm down before I knocked on the door. I couldn't be fucking nervous wreck.

I knocked twice and it a took a little bit before she opened the door. She had a peephole but I guess she didn't look through because th relook on her face was sour.

"Jovan, what do you want?" She asked tiredly. "if you want you clothes, I can get them for you."

"Nah, I just want to talk, Iva. Is anybody else here?" I asked and she shook her head. She slowly let me in and I thanked God she did.

We went into her room and sat on opposite sides of the room.

"What do you want, Jovan?" She asked me again.

"I just want to say I'm sorry. I didn't mean for any of this to happen and you know I wouldn't just let Amina get hurt. I care about her and I care about you. Hell, I care about your whole family. This wasn't intential, aight?"

"Okay, Jovan. Is that it?" She sounded fed up.

"You think I'd just let her get hurt?" I asked her. She sat that for a while, seriously thinking about it.

"I don't know. I don't know." She repeated.

"Seriously, Iva. You see how much I care for that little girl. It hurt me to take her to the hospital. You think that she doesn't phase me?" I explain ed to her.

"Can you please just leave me alone."

I stood up slowly as I watched her intently. Her whole body was shifted away from me and she was buying her nails. Her weave was in a messy bun and it looked like she had been crying.

"Baby, come here." I said barely above a whisper. She slowly got up off the chair and came to me. I looked down at her and she could barely look me in the eye.

"I'm so sorry." I lifted her chin so she could look me in the eyes. "Stop being mad at a nigga." I whisper as I kissed her neck.

"Jovan." She called out as I snaked my arms around her body, gripping her ass. I slowly picked her up by her legs. I carried her to the bed and laid her on her back.

I reach up her dress and pull her panties down. I massaged her pearl with my thumb and she was already wet. I pulled down my sweatpants and boxers. I slowly slid it inside of her and she gasped loudly.

Iva wrapped her arms around my neck as I slowly strokes in and out of her.

"You like that?" I asked her and she nodded.

"Yes, babe." She moaned as I continued to give her what she clearly needed. I felt her scratching at my back as she released on my dick.

"Uh." She moaned in my ear. I went deeper and she placed her hands at my pelvis. I took her hands and intertwined them with mine as I gave her slow steady strokes.

"I love you so much." I groaned in her ear. "You're my girl and I don't want to lose you."

"Mm." She moaned.

"You mean the world to me, baby. You're so beautiful and sexy. " I expressed as I continued to give her slow sensible strokes.

"I love you too." She looked into my eyes and I honestly didn't expect her to even say it back.

"Cum for me." I told her in her ear.

"Jovan." She moaned. I knew she was close.

"You can do it, baby." I sucked on her neck.

"Uh!" She released again and she wrapped her legs around me.

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2 hours later.

Ivena
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I laid on Jovan's chest quietly. Lord knows I missed him. We were just enjoying our time together in peace. I didn't want to think about tomorrow or whatever we were right now.

I just wanted to be.

"Happy belated birthday, by the way." I told him and he chuckled.

"Thank you, Iva." His grip on me got tighter. "Look, I want you to know how much you mean to me. It's been rough for me without you."

"The same for me." I admitted.

"I got to tell you something, though." He pauses. "I was offered a job in Connecticut."

I rise up off of his chest so quick. My whole mood changed in the matter of seconds. I climb out the bed and be does too.

"So what was this? Just a quick nut?!" I asked as tears started to fill my eyes.

"Iva-"

"Save your fucking lies, bitch. I should've never had sex with you. I shouldn't have done it in Jamaica or now." I shook my head and she stared at me with a blank expression. I just wanted him to feel my hurt.

"Am I just another girl on your fucking list?! Why the fuck did you come into my life? I didn't even want to have sex with you. You forced me, bitch." I started saying random things. They weren't even true I just wanted him to show some type of emotion. I sobbed and he grabbed my neck roughly.

"I ain't never force you to do shit. It was an agreement between the both of us. So, don't get fucked up talking shit, Iva. And don't call me out my fucking name." He pierced my eyes and all I could do was nod. He slowly let go of me and I slid down the wall and put my knees to my chest. I put my head down and bawled my eyes out.

He stood there, watching me until he eventually sat down with me and held me in his arms.

"Just go. Go home or to Connecticut or wherever the hell you wanna go. 'Cause I'm done. I can't do it anymore. Especially, not at the expense of my child." I said through my sobs.

"Iva, I won't go if you don't want me to."

"No, I want you to. I want you to be as far away from me as possible." I spoke sarcastically.

"Tell me what you want, for real."

"I want you to get out."

It was weird because I was holding onto him so tightly but I wanted him to be gone.

"This can't work anymore." I expressed.

"That's what you want?" He asked for clarification and I nodded.

"That's exactly what I want."

I was saying the exact opposite of what I actually wanted.

"I'll go. I love you." He kissed me with tongue and I had to push him away.

"I-" I started but stopped. I couldn't even bring the words out my mouth. He left my room and I heard he front door slam so I know he left completely.