Insomnia || L.S ✔

Epilogue

Harry's POV

It's crazy to think how much power fate actually has over us. How if we would change even one little action our whole future could change. I think about it all the time.

People always say that our past doesn't define us. I do agree with that statement but our past is what has made us...well us. It will always be a part of us.

For some people it's a good thing but for others not so much. I fall into the category of the latter.

A dead dad, drug addict mum and abusive step-dad will always be a part of me and there's nothing I can change about it no matter how much I'd like to do that.

Sometimes I wish people could just erase their pasts. But at the same time I don't.

Our past is what helps us learn from our mistakes and move on with our lives. It's what forms our personality, abilities and basically our entire existence.

On days I feel like forgetting about my past I think of the fact that if all those bad things wouldn't have happened to me I wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't be surrounded by my amazing brother, caring friends and a loving boyfriend. To think about it, I probably never would've met them.

I once talked to Louis about it. He said that if we hadn't met like this he would've found me anyways.

I want to believe that with all my heart but unfortunately I know that it's not possible.

That's what originally got me thinking about fate. If Niall hadn't come knocking on our door that day we probably wouldn't be friends. If I hadn't bumped into Louis that day we probably wouldn't be together.

It's scary how little things like that can decide our whole entire future.

Talking about the future and the past, I'd like to yell you about a few of my favorite memories from this year.

For example, Louis' prom. It was genuinely one of the best nights in my life. He asked me one night when we were just laying in my bed.

Now I know it may not sound romantic to you, but to me it was. Because after all my bed was where our relationship actually began developing.

*flashback*

Louis and I were watching a movie in my bed when I let out a yawn.

"Are you tired my love?" He asked me.

"A little bit, yeah. It's been a long day."

"Trust me, I know. The exams were horrible." He groaned. "I'm so fucking glad they're over."

"I can't believe you and Zayn aren't gonna be with us every day next year. I'm gonna miss you so much."

"I know baby, I'll miss you too. But we'll make it work, yeah?"

"Of course we will." I said with a grin. And I truly believed that we could get through anything as long as we were in it together.

"But the year isn't over yet so let's just enjoy it for as long as we can." He said which made me a bit confused.

"But there's only a few days left of school."

"I wasn't talking about that, angel. I actually wanted to ask you something."