Tamisra techno X oc X dream

~27~ im sorry

It has been a week. A week sense the kiss. A week since dream found out he was no longer in love. Sapnap had walked in on the two right after the kiss and offered for her and Berry to stay. Needless to say she had accepted the kind offer. 

All week had been fine for Tristan laughing with sapnap and George about small things, and being around dream. She liked being around dream, she liked the way it made her feel about herself.

But on the other hand, he hated it. The way she looked at him like he is the only thing that matters, how you see him so well. Like he has been invisible his whole life and she was the only one who really saw him.

It made him angry, angry at himself for letting it happen. Letting her fall for him. Any moment now he can snap at her to stop. but he doesn't want to hurt her feelings. He has caused her pain before. He knows how she feels about everything.

Tristan had not left the house as much. not wanting to see the people from l'manburg and its new residents. During the week she only left to hunt with Sapnap or dream. 

~Tristan s pov~

It was around 6pm in the land of the dream smp. Sapnap was about to start making dinner when he realized we didn't get enough meat in yesterday's hunting session. He went hunting yesterday so it was mine and dreams turn to go. 

During the past week I had stayed here, he had seemed to change. I don't know if it was in a good way or bad way. He had been pushing me away every time I even wanted to talk to him one on one. Maybe right now while we are hunting he will tell me, or I can ask. I wonder if i did something wrong or to upset him?

As we were making our way into the woods I wanted to break the silence. "Hey dream… im sorry if i did something to you." I apologize not even knowing for what reason. I just want to go back to normal with him.

"Just shut up, will you tristan?" He stated in a rather hostile tone I was all too familiar with because of my family. It took me a while to really process what he had told me. "Can you tell me what i did first?" I replied not really wanting to fight.

"Tristan you cant take a fucking hint can you. I don't want you."

What...

"You will never be good enough. You will never be enough for someone to stay. And it's so sad how hard you are trying." He shouted. I didn't really know what to think. I felt hot water drip down the sides of my face.

"Dream. I'm sorry if i messed up. I'm sorry if I came off as a little to clingy… i- i love you. And your the only one i feel that way with. You're the only one who makes me feel good about myself."

"Your so fucking pathetic you know that. You're practically throwing yourself at me. I don't love you. I never did. This isn't Romeo and Juliet, this is real life and I can go on without you. I don't need someone like you.!" 

"What do you mean… you just never loved me? You never felt something? Did you ever even care for me like the way you made me think you did" i asked in a dull tone, possessing everything.

" No, I didn't. What made you think I cared for you? Just because I showed you the smallest amount of kindness. You Tristan. Will never be loved. And I can tell." He was yelling at this point and it was starting to scare me. It reminded me of my family way too much. I just want to go home now.

"I'm sorry. Can we just go home now." I asked not wanting to upset him anymore.

"No. I don't think we should go home. It's my home not yours." He hissed not really caring about what he was saying at this point.

"Can i just go back to your house, get my dog and leave please. You won't have to hear from me again. Im sorry." I didn't really wait for an answer, I just wanted to get berry and leave.

~small time skip~

When I opened the door I was greeted by Sapnap and George. I looked up looking for berry when I met eyes with george. "Tristan why are your eyes so red? What happened?" I didn't want to answer his questions nor sapnap. And instead asked one of my own. "Do you know where berry is i want to take him- i want to take him for a walk." Sapnap replied to my question instantly "yeah, he is on my bed asleep. But leave him there please he is so cute when he is like that" 

I didn't want to argue with him. So I agreed "ok sapnap. Just will you take good care for him please." 

"Yeah but i thought you said you were just going for a walk" he questioned. "Yeah I am. I just don't want anything happening to him okay?" They both gave a small humm and as i walked out of the house i heard sapnap yell "dinner will enjoy ready in 30 minutes don't be late!" Yup i'm sorry if i can't make it sap. I will make it up to you one day. 

As I was walking out of the dream smp land I started to cry. My footsteps are getting heavier with every step. Eventually I fell to the floor, hands wiping the tears that fell from my eyes.

After a while I heard more footsteps heading my way. "Ma'am are you ok? Names Schlatt if you need anything."

A/n 

Hehe im not crying you are :(