Pistanthrophobia

depressed

Kaidens POV

Dear Jijo,

Me disculpo por no ser el padre que deseaba. eso es algo de lo que siempre me arrepentiré kaiden. Te lastimé a ti y a tu madre, una disculpa no será suficiente por la crueldad que les di a los dos. Solo sé que te amo, hijo, aunque no lo demostré tanto como quería. Adiós Kaiden…..

                                                                                                      ama a tu padre

Dear son,

If you're reading this...I have died. I apologize for not being the father you wanted/desired. That's something I’ll always regret. I hurt both you and your mother, and apology won’t be enough for the cruelty I gave you both. Just know I love you son, even though I didn’t show it as much as I wanted. Bye Kaiden….

                                                                                     Love your father

I read the letter with dried tears on my face having cried before actually opening the letter. He may have slightly ruined my life...which is an understatement considering I was forced to kill people, but he was still there...that father figure that I hate but love.

Saire’s POV

flashback

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

“Because I finally got you…”

“What do you mean?”

“Your mine…”

“Yeah and you're mine?

He chuckled…. “No, no you're mine”

He started walking towards me, and I cokced my head to the side while backing away.

“S-sam?”

“Yes baby?”

I didn’t respond and just kept backing away. When he was finally close enough he gripped my waist, and leaned forward

“I’m craving blood baby…”

“W-what?” I tried to back away but he tightened his grip

Tighter

Tighter

Tighter

“OW”

He tutted… “aw, I’m sorry”

“Your scaring me”

“Am I?” he smiled

TRIGGER WARNING : Rape… do not continue if that bothers you. Scroll to the next chapter

He flipped me around so my back was towards him, and hunched me over the counter. 

“W-w-what a-are you do-doing?” 

My voice was shaky, and my body was trembling. He didn’t answer and unbuttoned my jeans.

“S-stop” 

I started to struggle against his hold but he held down tighter. I started hyperventilating, and shaking my head from side to side. He yanked my pants down along with my underwear and was groping me in every place that was visible.

“P-please stop!” I sobbed out

No response….

I heard the unbuckling of his belt and I started screaming 

“NO NO NO FUCK LET GO OF ME!”

He slapped me so hard I felt blood form in my mouth making me cry harder

“PLEASE STOP!” I cried louder and louder not hearing him spit into his hand...not feeling him rub his spit onto my back entrance only reacting when I felt..it against me. I cried louder and screamed louder

“Shhh baby no point in screaming the neighbors don’t give a fuck…”

I was about to let out another loud scream when my breath got caught into my throat when he finally forcefully entered me. I couldn’t breathe...he didn’t wait before moving. It burned...god it burned so much. It was the most painful thing I ever felt. 

And eventually I stopped crying...eventually I stopped screaming...eventually I stopped struggling, and just went numb...quiet. The only thing being heard was his once in a while grunts. When he finished he crawled off of me and pulled on his underwear watching me the whole time.

Rape scene over

I watched his face the whole time...keeping eye contact...numb to it all. I broke completely when he smirked at me before walking away

flashback over

I stopped Gabriels hand from roaming my body after having that flashback. Sometimes I just couldn’t control them...you know? 

“Hey, what’s wrong baby?”

I shook my head indicating that I did not want to talk about it. He knew if I didn’t say anything it was about sam, so he just nodded and laid his head down on my chest

“Sorry”

“Why are you apologizing?... seriously Saire don’t blame yourself please. I understand okay? Never apologize for that again.”

“Okay..” I whispered

We were silent for a few minutes and I thought he was sleeping before he asked

“How’s your relationship with Kaiden”

“Um, it was going okay before...you know”

“Yeah…”

We ended the conversation and he fell asleep on me until ryan came into the room saying something about being lazy and it not being healthy to lay in bed all day before turning on a movie continuing to lay in the bed and fall asleep after saying that.

Authors note: where the hell am I going with this story? i don't know don't ask me. I think I already explained this being a short story as soon as we finish saire's backstory and saire and kaiden find out about each other's back story AND their relationship builds more it will enddddd